hi i'm back. it's been a little while. i tried out for the musical, and according to the director, most likely didn't get cast. which is fine. i can try out next year.
lately my brain has been picking me apart. tonight is no different. it's quiet right now, and i have the urge to hurt myself because my scars burn(i don't know if that's the right word but oh well) and my list of reasons to not do anything is getting smaller by the second.
i wanna feel something other than empty or overwhelmingly sad. i want to stop feeling like i'm on the edge of tears all the time in my classes because kids are mean. i want it to all just fucking stop.
but it can't. and it won't. so i'm forced to wait it out. i'll be fine.
that's all for now, sorry it's fucking depressing
stay safe and stay chill lovelies
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anathema//spam book
Randomthis is going to be filled with poetry, spam, and 12am thoughts ---talks about suicide/selfharm/suicidal thoughts please be safe--- (cover edit done by me)
