anathema//spam book

i can't (all the usual trigger warnings)

today isn't a good day. 

blueberry might be transferring to a different school with indigo.

i've been binding for too long and i lied to indigo about taking it off.

i haven't had a clean streak in who knows how long

i just accidentally read something super triggering and i just wanna hurt myself again

i'm losing my will to live fairly quickly and i don't like that because on the one hand i'm scared but on the other hand maybe i don't deserve to take up anymore space.

i just wanted to have a good day for once.

i don't wanna exist anymore.