Tw: T-slur/f-slur mention/explicit self harm/suicidal thoughts
I haven't been clean for months. No one knows that though. I've lied to them all. Mamí and Dad think I'm getting better. Indigo is dealing with the fact that them and Blue broke up. Blue hates me for sharing something they said about Indigo. I got called a tr*nny and a f*g yesterday.
And all the while I keep waiting for things to get better. That's what everyone told me. Yet nothing seems to be looking any better. I'm on the verge of losing my best friend, if not to this fight, then to another S.O., and I don't want to be alone anymore. I'm so tired. Yesterday I relapsed hard and I thought about killing myself. But I don't have a plan, or notes. So I'm still here.
I don't have anymore words to say, I just want to sleep forever.
I swear I'll post something happy soon.
Stay safe and chill my lovelies.
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anathema//spam book
Randomthis is going to be filled with poetry, spam, and 12am thoughts ---talks about suicide/selfharm/suicidal thoughts please be safe--- (cover edit done by me)
