idk: A Poetry Collection

idk 11

I'm trapped
Trapped in endless tears and worries
Trapped in my own fears and flurries of pain

Pain is an entirely different concept
It consumes with not a care for anything else
It devours and destroys everything in its wake

When I am awake and the world is asleep
I stand in pains way and misery's path
They trample me without a care or a glance

I tell people of my injuries but they can't see the damage
Its internal and crushing and soul shattering
And the worst is that I cannot speak of it in a manner of understanding

I want to scream and I want to bawl but I can't
Sadness is overwhelming and suffocating and enables impossibility
I cannot describe what the weight of heart wrenching homesickness feels like

It feels like you are a plant with too much sun and no water
It feels like you are trapped in the sea with too much water
It feels suffocating and painful and weighing but you can't express it

I can't express it well enough for anyone to understand
That's half the pain. No one knows. No one understands.
Yes. I am aware that there is someone that does.
However, that is

No one I know