idk: A Poetry Collection

idk 13

I worry.
My thoughts whirl around in a hurricane a hurry.

I ask one question and immediately wish I could retract it
I ask ONE question and suddenly feel an overwhelming sense of panic.

I want to apologize I want to say sorry for bugging you
I want to retract what I said I want to take it back I want to Obliviate it

I feel so ridiculous for wanting to apologize for a simple question
I feel so flustered in my want to keep apologizing for that simple question

I feel constrained confined in my own brain and my own mind
because I'm aware that I'm being ridiculous and you probably don't care

You probably aren't checking your phone and you might not even be at home
yet here I am worrying and worrying more and more by the second

It's not your fault it's mine and mine alone
it's my brain's way of functioning in which it doesn't function at all

Leave me to be leave me alone
I don't want you to have to deal with the person I really am

Not even me as a person but my mind
My brain is broken sometimes and I don't want to give you the trouble of finding the glue.