idk: A Poetry Collection

idk 9

I know that I should say
But I feel that they won't get it.

I know I'm not alone
But it's hard to let anyone in

It's like trying to force words
It's impossible to feel comfortable

I just wish I could tell them
Tell them that I understand their pain

I do in all honesty
The fear the strikes the heart

The heart that beats like crazy
And decides "no I won't stop"

I wish that I could tell them
About everything I've felt

But that is just the unspeakable
Besides they wouldn't get it

More people really do know
But without them I'm sort of alone

I would bawl
I would cry

I would scream how vividly I remember that night

The night where fear overwhelmed me
The night when I couldn't breathe

I would tell you how it started
But again that's beyond me

I can't help feeling lost sometimes
There is light at the end of every tunnel

But I'm not there yet
So until I am, I'll keep it in my little bottle

In my little jar
On my high far away shelf