insomniac {y.guk}

fifteen

[AN]
please listen to the piano cover of euphoria for jeongguk's performance. even if it seems out of place for the book, when i found it i immediately fell in love. all credit goes to Smyang Piano on YouTube. you should definitely check out some of the other covers on there too, they sound great. also, in the pic, that's jeongguk's outfit for the performance. anyways, let's continue with the story 🙃

there were about ten minutes left till his performance. jeongguk paced back and forth backstage, gripping his hair and mumbling to himself.

suddenly, someone grabbed his shoulders and put him to a stop. the brunette looked up and saw hoseok with a stern look on his face.

"you've got to stop stressing about this. i know it's your first big performance, but i've seen you do this a hundred times. you're gonna do great." hoseok held the younger boy's chin, trying to boost his confidence.

jeongguk gently shrugged him aside, moving past him. "but yoongi wrote this song. he composed it specifically for me and what if i screw it up and look like a failure. he'll hate me."

hoseok followed him. "stop it, jeongguk. you'll be amazing, and yoongi is still going to love you no matter what. now go stretch and try to relax." he patted his back before wandering off, checking on the other students who were just as anxious.

before he knew it, it was jeongguk's turn. he strode towards the stage and pushed his shoulders back, trying to gain confidence. yoongi had pre-recorded himself playing piano for the auditorium to use for his performance. he just hoped he could be as good as yoongi expected him to be.

he stepped onto the stage, the music starting to play. he danced his heart out, putting in all his effort and passion. so much time was spent on this routine, and he wanted to make sure everyone else would be able to notice. he made the song seem so much more dramatic than it sounded with his graceful yet inspiring and breathtaking moves.

however, just when jeongguk thought he had reached the finish line, something happened that he dreaded. with one last spin, his foot got caught on the other. he tumbled down onto the stage.

he didn't dare make a move, knowing all eyes were on him. he kept his head and eyes down, basically laying on the platform.

hoseok stared from the side, eyes wide and unsure of what to do. yoongi covered his mouth and gasped quietly. his first instinct was to rush and help him, but he knew he couldn't just run on stage. an employee would stop him. instead and exited the auditorium and stayed in the lobby.

jeongguk eventually pushed himself up slowly, running off stage with a slightly limp. he had twisted his ankle in the process, but he didn't care. the only thing he wanted to do was escaped the stares of all the family and friends of his peers. as fast as he could, he slipped into the lobby bathroom. as soon as he entered, the tears fell. he couldn't help it. he felt as if he had made a fool of himself.

yoongi quietly stepped in, closing the door behind him. his heart broke at the sound of jeongguk's quiet sobs. the crying boy still hadn't noticed him since his back was facing him. yoongi stepped closer and slowly wrapped his arms around jeongguk from behind, resting his head on his back. "you did amazing, baby. i'm so proud of you."

jeongguk only cried harder, covering his face with his hands. "you worked so hard, and then i went out there and made myself look like an idiot."

"don't say that. you're not an idiot." yoongi spun jeongguk around, making the younger look him in the eyes. "you were perfect. you worked even harder on the choreography. i know you did because everyday for the past month you've came home, talking about how sore you were from practice and how hard hoseok was on you. the passion was there, and i know that everyone saw it. i felt it for sure." yoongi brushed the soft brown hair back, wrapping his arms around jeongguk's waist.

jeongguk hid his face in yoongi's shoulder and wrapped his arms around the older, hiding the fresh wave of tears. he whispered, "i love you so much."

yoongi kissed the side of his head, stroking his hair. "i love you too, sweetheart. don't ever doubt yourself. so many people believe in you."

the former nodded before pulling away, wiping his tears. yoongi kissed jeongguk softly, holding him close.

jeongguk mumbled against his boyfriends lips, "my ankle really, really hurts."

•••

the boys were finally back in their cozy apartment, jeongguk's ankle now placed in a wrap. yoongi and jeongguk stood in the latter's doorway, bidding each other goodnight. they didn't always sleep together. most of the time it was only when they couldn't sleep at all, but they were slowly getting better with the other's help. they thought it was good to sleep separately every once in while.

jeongguk pressed his lips against yoongi's, wrapping his arms around his neck. he stayed like that for a moment before pulling away slowly.

"goodnight." yoongi pecked jeongguk's forehead.

"goodnight." jeongguk smiled.

they stared at each other for a moment, jeongguk's smile fading. they looked at each other's lips briefly before giving in, their lips crashing together. the atmosphere changed rapidly, going from calm to heated in no time.

yoongi moved jeongguk toward the younger's bed, pushing him down onto it. he hovered  over jeongguk, his eyes skimming over his tan body. the boy was already shirtless, for he was prepared to go to sleep. yoongi kissed jeongguk sloppily before trailing hot, wet kisses down his neck and to his chest.

jeongguk panted quietly, tangling his fingers in yoongi's hair. he closed his eyes, moaning softly at the feeling of yoongi's chapped lips leaving marks on his skin.

the older smirked and moved back up, pecking the corner of the brunette's lips. he ran his fingers back and forth across the hem of jeongguk's shorts, teasing him.

the latter groaned, pulling yoongi closer so he could kiss him again. they pressed closer to each other, leaving no space in between. they could feel themselves through their shorts, growing needier by the second.

jeongguk was nervous, but he wanted this. this would be his first time, but he knew yoongi was experienced in the field. he trusted him though. he was ready. jeongguk loved yoongi. yoongi loved jeongguk. he was positive he was ready for this.

in no time their clothes were scattered on the floor, the two a hot mess.

idk if i should write smut or not😂
do you guys want it? my friend offered to help me with it, so i might ask him. i'll think about it though.

anyways, thank you to you guys who are voting and commenting. it means a lot and really motivates me to keep writing! 💜

✔️