DADDY ISSUES

Three

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I spend the best three days of my life. We when to the movies, to an amusement park, walked by the beach, eat a lot, and just talked. I have never been happier and more peaceful, we even when for shopping. I never remembered me and dad spending so much time together.

The day he had to leave again came quickly and Monday sunrise he carefully walked into my room. He leans down and left a kiss on my forehead. My eyes open but still I don't understand what's going on.

"Dad?"

I whisper and his hand hails my hair.

"Sh, it's still really early go back to sleep. I came to say goodbye."

He squads down and tacks me better in bed.

"Be safe and call me every day. I will be back soon. I left you money on the counter and the keys to my car, please be careful. Don't miss your classes."

"Okay."

I said with closed eyes, already falling back to sleep as he stood and walked out of my room, his tall figures disappeared, and few minutes after I hear the front door closing behind him.

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Five days now I'm still at dad's house. I think he is somewhere in Australia, not soon. I had zero communication with mom which is good actually but with dad, I talk every day. Since school is hours away from here, I drive there. That's how life should be.

Today is Sunday and I sit on the couch watching whatever the TV program has so I can kill time and not be bored. I watch reality show after reality show, it's trashy but entertaining. Sometimes you need to just shut down your mind and watch whatever for no purpose. The home phone starts ringing beside me and I lower the volume from the tv and answer.

"Melanie."

My dad yells from the other end of the phone almost making me go deaf. Singal really sucks.

"Dad."

"Hello, Melanie. Can you hear me?"

"Yes, dad. I can hear you."

I yell back at him, it's also really loud whenever he is.

"I'm at the hotel restaurant with the cabin crew we wait for our food. Jack, I am going out so I can talk."

He explains to me and talks to someone who I assume sits next to him. Few moments of silence till he speaks again.

"How are you doing? Are you eating well? Tell me you didn't miss your classes?"

"I am good. I am eating and I don't miss my class, plus today is Sunday."

"Okay, be careful when you drive."

"I am dad, how is Australia."

"Still very warm."

"Nice, did you get to swim?"

"Not really. Melanie, your mom called me."

My eyes open wide and I stand up from the couch and start walking up and down. What does she want? I take a breath as I wait for him to finish his sentence.

"She said that you haven't communicated with her in a while and that I don't allow you to do so and keep you without you will."

"How dare is she? She fucked up. But what did I expect its everyone's blame except hers."

I ramble of my own as I feel the anger rising up from my feet and burning me.

"Calm down and tell me what happened between you two?"

"Nothing, she did nothing."

I am not going to tell him anything about it. Never, I still stand by it and I need to calm down before I say anything else and things get worst.

"I know something happens, that's why you came to me. I'm in no way better than her."

"Dad please I don't want to talk about it and mom hasn't even tried to contact me. She just wants to upset you, that's how much she cares for me. Don't even stress about it I will take care of it."

Moments of silence follow from both sides. I am thinking of how I will go confront her tomorrow after. He just tries to makes something out of it. Dad knows mom better than me; she was his wife for so many years after all. It's not easy living or being with her.

"As you wish, please be safe and I will be back soon."

"Yes, dad you too."

I hung up and throw the phone on the couch with force from luck it didn't shutter. Mom always has a way to ruin things. I can not believe what she did, I will have to go back a clear my position and make her understand that I cant be living with her when her behavior is like this. I am sure that in the end she is going to force me to go back but as long as I can avoid it I will. 

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The sound of the bell ringing echoed across the budling, snapping me out of my mind. Zoning out is a habit of mine but after yesterday's events, I could not sleep. I could not stop my brain from thinking. I was late for school this morning and I didn't have the chance to pass from mom and honestly, I think it was for the best. I have the feeling that she would find a way to trap me in and I won't be able to escape, it's weird to think like that for your own mother but well that how it is for me.

Walking out of the school and into the parking lot, looking for my keys in my backpack as I walk. I stop on my feet when I notice someone leaning on my dad's car and when I raised my eyes I can face to face with my mom. The nerve. With my keys in hand, I let a breath and walk to the car ignoring her presence completely. I unlock the door and when I try to pull it open she puts her hand blocking my way in the car. I guess there is no way out.

"You can not escape this, get in the car and let's go home. "

I turn my head and look at her dead in the eyes.

"That's what I am trying to do."

"That is not your home."

I chuckle.

"And your house is? Do you even think what you are saying? How is this place my home when there is no food, no one to care about it except me, a mother that all she knows is to get dressed, get drunk, bring men home to fuck. That's all you do not even once you stopped and thought of me. Is that too much to ask from my mother, I guess from you it is. "

Mom wraps her hand around my arm, looks around us, and brings me closer.

"I said get in the car and don't embarrass me with your bullshit."

She says behind gripped teeth as her nails dig into my skin bring tears to my eyes. I yank my arm from her hold.

"The only person that can embarrass you is yourself, if there was one chance to come home you have lost that one too. I am staying with dad and don't you even dare to bother him or me again. I think that solution is the best for all of us you will live the life you so much desire and I will have a home. "

I open the car door and go inside, she was just standing there looking at me. Her ego was so hurt, I knew her well. I knew where were my limits with her but she has pushed me beyond mine and there is no way back. I know she won't let this go so easily. She loves making people miserable even if that means it's me.  

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