DADDY ISSUES

19

It's a week after and things are going amazing. I and dad are to our bests. We spend all the time together. We are going out and make big walks. We are talking about random things. For memories of my childhood, for dreams and life. We getting back home for a long walk and its evening. 

" I'm tired "

I say and he laughs. We sit on the couch. 

" Melanie I've been thinking. "

He says and he sounds serious.

" About what dad? "

I smile.

"Maybe is better to go back to your mom's house "

My smile goes away. And I can't believe what he just say to me. 

" You don't want me here? "

I ask and I am going to cry.

" Of course, I want you here but you have to pack and get ready you are leaving soon."

He stands from the couch. 

" You need to learn how to live with your Mother again. You gonna leave with her and i just don't want you to leave but... "

He stops and closes his eyes as he is holding something inside. He takes a breath and opens his eyes and says.

"Melanie if you want to stay, stay but I'm just saying to you that it could be better if you go back home. To see what is happening and get ready your stuff and yourself. It's a big move. And they need you too to know what you think and what you want. Although it hurts me to say it, you will not be able to run to me when you need me. But remember that I will always be a call away. I wish I could hold you here but i know that I'm not the best father and the best person to be around."

Tears run down my cheeks. 

" And the day you will leave I won't be here to say goodbye to you because I take all these days off just to be more with you and then I have to work all these months. But it matters more to me to be here with you."

I just stand up and hug him. 

"You are the best dad and an amazing person don't think again that for you "

I stay and I hug him tighter. I am crying on his shoulder. We stay like that for some minutes and then he pulled away. 

" Melanie don't cry because it's best like this. It's a pure new life for you, a fresh start away from all these bad memories. "

He says holding me by my shoulders. I look down. He hugs me again. We calm down and I when to take my things. My dad is right I need to get back I just deny it so much. Because I'm scared. If I go back it will be more real. I will be clear and facing the fact that I will leave. I say to dad that I will walk myself home. I need it a little time alone. He understands that and lets me. But say that I will have to call him when i get home so he will be sure that I'm safe and home.  

I walk slowly to my home. I didn't have to rush for anything. How life change that quickly. The day I move with mom I didn't expect all this. And I didn't expect for mom to follow a man she usually is not like that. She says a man has to run after us. I never understand it. Why do that? Why expect everything from man? You can make a move. I and mom are so different in everything. I wonder how we live well she wasn't home that much. 

When she was still married to dad and we were living all together. We fight most of the times. For a million things for food, that I need to stop eating unhealthy trash and even for boys. It wasn't that she didn't want me to go out, she wanted me. And every time we talk about it we end up that I need to do something with my self like wear makeup, nicer clothes. Be more flirty and act a little silly and stuff like that. But that is not me and I don't think a girl needs this to be wanted of someone. Mom's says that I don't know the man that well. Well if I have to pretend I'm someone else I don't want to know them. 

I wonder if she does all this with Klaus. Of course, she does. I mean she is like this, that's why he fell for her. He is like all this man mom was with that care more for the outside. Hate it. It disgusts me. Suddenly I get upset with the fact that he likes this. Is because it's wrong or that if it is true he will never like me. I just move my head to kick out all these stupid thoughts. I am near home and I walk a bit faster. Because I am walking over two hours now. 

I stand in front of the door. I don't have keys so I ring the bell. Nothing. I ring it again. I should have to call mom and inform her that I will come. If they are not home what I will do? Go back to dads home or stay here? I ring again the bell one last time. The door opens aggressively. In front of me stands Klaus. Half asleep. Wearing grey sweatpants that are hanging extremely low. And no shirt. My cheeks turn red.

" Melanie? "

He says with question tone. My name sounds so nice of with mouth.

" Sorry that I wake you up "

I say embarrassed. Thank God I had the idea to come alone home. If dad was with me I don't know what it was going to happen. if he saw this

" No problem "

He says with a low raspy voice. He is so sexy. I bite my lip. You are stupid. I say to myself. I take a breath.

" I came back home  "

I say and fake a smile. I look in his eyes. Big mistake. They were half closed and his face relaxed and his hair messed up. He was sleeping for sure. 

" Good "

He says and smiles. He turns his back and walks inside. I get a view from the back side too and it's hot. I look up why does he have to be so sexual. I think. Just shut up and go to your room. I say to myself. I get inside and close the door.

 It has boxes all over the place and things were missing. They start to pack. He lays on the couch. He didn't say anything else. I hear his light snoring. I smile. I get close and I see him sleeping. His body was laying flat there. His one hand was behind his head. I was standing there like a creep looking at him. He looks so cute sleeping it makes me smile. I close my eyes and I remind myself who he was and that what I think was wrong. So wrong but I felt something inside me. 

I just run upstairs. I lock myself in my room. Not that he will do something no. But I was too dangerous. My room was as I left it. Nothing was missing everything was there. I let my bag down and I just lay on the bed facing the ceiling. I try my best not to think about him but it was none sense. And lost of time. Because I was going to think about him anyway. My mind makes travels to his heavenly body but hell I have to stay away from it.

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