DADDY ISSUES

23

Two days after. 

Mom next morning come home with a smile and a big diamond ring on her finger. She screamed we are getting married. She hugged me. She was beyond happy. Why wouldn't she? I drown everything in my tears. I will ignore him for the rest of my life. It's just a year that I will have to live with them. Just a year and then I will be gone. 

What is strange is what mom gave me. She gave me a little blue box. She says it's a gift from Klaus. I was shocked. I didn't expect him to give me anything. I open it in front of my mom. And my mouth opens wildly when I see a little gold heart. It was a necklace. Simple and lovely. I look at my mom.

" I can't except it. "

I say to her. I was in a panic, inside. My heart was beating so fast. 

" He gifts it to you and it will be rude of you if you give it back. If a man gifts you such a thing you don't return it. Come on wear it. "

She says and takes it off the little blue box with force as it means nothing. But I knew even of his silence that this meant something. She turns me around and put it to my neck. Why he did this? I am going to cry. 

" Done "

She says and put her hands to my shoulders. I look down and touch the heart. I bite my lip. 

" Let me see it "

She says and I let it and turn to her. 

" Amazing "

She says.

" Mom... "

I go to say and she stops me by saying. 

" Malanie he wants you to have it and you will. He will be your dad after all "

She says, takes her bag and walk upstairs. My dad? I hold my self from the counter. He will marry my mom that means that he will be my stepdad. How can I not think of it?  I look up. I just have to stop thinking. I think I make it worse. I go to take the box but I see on the bottom a little white card. I take it. It was from him. He had beautiful handwriting. I read it.

To my beautiful sun
- K

A tear run down my cheek. I held it close to my chest. I just run upstairs and cry.  It was sweet of him but he shouldn't do it. Anyways. The other day he came home and he and mom had dinner. I did eat early because I didn't want to be on the same table with them. He announced that his mother will visit us. She wants to meet mom. 

Mom asked him what she knows and she meant her age and me. He says my mom knows that i am with a girl i love and i will marry her. That's enough. Anything else is needless to say and it doesn't concern. She smiles. 

How can he talk like this? I mean. It's his mom and she needs to know. At least about me. It will make her feel uncomfortable if she suddenly sees me. And it will make me. But im excited to see her. I never had a grandparent and she will kinda be one. My dad's parents die before I even get born. And mom's well is ghosts. Like I have to see them over five years, I think. They don't want to know about my existence. But that's fine, I prefer to not see them again because every time I see them, they have something bad to say about me.

So now im home and wake early. Waiting for his mom. I wear blue jeans and a black top. And I still wear the necklace Klaus gift me. Wearing it I feel strange. Not only uncomfortable and shame, something else that I can not explain.