DADDY ISSUES

34

The light of the bright sun gets into the room from the big window. As i wake up i feel a weight on me. I open my eyes and see Klaus face on my chest. He looks peaceful. His face is calm and his hands strongly holding me close to him. I smile and hail his hair. I try to get off his grip without waking him up. And i success. I put a pillow to where i was and he hugs it. 

I stand from the bed. I start putting my clothes back to the suitcase and i get dressed. I put my hair in a ponytail. I was ready to leave. My fly was in two hours and i have to call dad that im leaving because he has to come and pick me up from the airport when i arrive. 

Before i leave i look at him and kneel beside the bed. I hail his hair with my hand. It was soft and it smells his shampoo. So manly and strong sense. Who knows if I will ever have the chance to do this, to see him like this. Probably never. I lean on him and let a small, sweet kiss on his cheek.

" Goodbye Klaus "

I whisper to his ear and stand up. I take one last look and walk out of my room with my head up. Mark was waiting for me beside the door. He smiles when he sees me and comes close to take the suitcase of my hands.

" Good morning "

I say with a painful smile. He nods and takes the suitcase.

" How you feel?"

He asks worriedly about me. I look down. I try to push another smile and hold my tears. 

"I'm feeling excited and happy i will spend a month with my dad, i miss him "

I say and i did except to say the next words.

" I guess this is how i feel "

" But you don't "

He comments. I put my sunglasses and walk out the door. The smile is no longer existing. Years run down my cheeks. This is right. I keep saying to myself. This is how it has to be. He follows me and i get on the passenger seat. As he gets on the car he says.

" You sure don't want to say goodbye? "

He asks. I already say goodbye. I look at him and push a smile.

" Mom knows that i have to live early and we will talk on the phone so there is no need for a goodbye "

I say. He doesn't say anything else. He starts the car. In all the driveway we stay silent. I was just looking out the window and i try to hold my tears back bit i fail. When the car stops in front of the airport i wipe quickly my tears away. We get out of the car and he gives me the suitcase.

" Thanks for the drive and for everything that you did for me "

I say and hug him. He didn't expect it, i didn't but he welcomes it. He hugs me back.

" Just be careful "

He says. I let him. I look back and then him.

" Bye "

I say and walk away.

" Goodbye, Melanie "

I smile and tears run down my cheeks. I get in the airport, i check-in and then we start getting to the airplane. I had a seat in the first class, again. But this time i was alone. I kept my sunglasses on. As i sit there alone in the silence and in my tears. I remember the playlist Klaus put on my phone. I need something to calm me. I quickly take my phone off my pocket and put the headphone on. 

As soon as i hear the first song i felt this warmth in my heart like he was here with me. Holding my hands, saying to me that everything is going to be alright. Although i was going away for a month, it felt to me like years. I want it to leave so much, i wait for this month for days and now i just want to run back to his warm hug. But it's for better like this. It is. 

All this distance will be good for us, we will manage to forget what we felt. Because this is the right thing. Because we have too. But i will always keep in my heart his kisses. His sweet, soft kisses. The way his hand touched me so carefully. How caring he was. I can't forget this. Is all that i have. I lean my head back and take off my sunglasses. My eyes are red and swollen. Tears still running down my cheeks.

 I let myself cry because if i keep it in it could be worse. I will just snap sometime and i don't want that. It would ruin my time with dad. I want to spend as much time as i can with dad this month because i haven't forgotten that when i go back i will be in another state, far for him. His the oasis in the desert. I look down. I miss him. If he was there i would run to him and nothing of this will have to happen. But even if i could i will not go back to time and stop it. For me it was special and all that i will have for him. The only thing. What is done, is done.

This month will heal us.

Hello! Good morning. This is the last chapter of the book. I can't believe i made it. And fuck im getting so emotional about it. Thank you all for all your support. I will not be here without you. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as i did writing it. I hope your day is great.
Bye. 😊