DADDY ISSUES

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I'm sitting on the table with all of them and we have breakfast together. I'm feeling better than i did yesterday. The talk with him really helped me. Although nothing is cleared up, for now, it's fine. Yesterday i slept all day. I didn't even know that i need it to sleep that much and maybe it was the three pills i take. 

I feel nervous being around him, I always did but this time is different and for some reason, I fell changed if I can say that. The kiss we share and what I felt and feel for him now is not that crazy and makes me panic as it did that day and yesterday. I don't say it is right what we did but im okay with it. I don't know. I bite my cupcake.

" Today it has a karaoke night at a bar would you like to go?"

Mom says. I look up at her.

" It's a nice idea baby "

Klaus says and kisses her and i look down.

" Melanie, what you think? "

Mom asks me and i look up at her. Mark takes his eyes from the newspaper he is reading and looks at me.

" It's a great idea "

I say with a smile. 

" Brilliant and you could sing. It passed a long time since i hear you sing. "

Mom comments and my cheeks turn red. I look down. No. I don't want to sing. Mark looks back at his newspaper.

" I didn't know Melanie could sing "

Klaus says with excitement and i feel his eyes on me.

" Yes she does and her voice is incredible. She was at a choir as well. "

Mom says and drinks a little of her coffee. 

" But she is shy of singing alone in front of people "

Mom adds and that makes me super extra ashamed. This is bad. I don't really like it. I can sing but i don't feel good doing it in front of people. When i was in a choir it was different. I mean i was with so many kids around me and they look at all of us, not just me. I smile, thinking of the choir. I miss it. 

I don't sing even to my parents, mom one day hear me when i was on my room, thinking that was alone singing my heart out. I just don't feel comfortable. I eat up quickly and stand up from my seat.

" Melanie, be ready at 08:00 P.M. and this time wear something nice. I want you to be pretty. So many people will look at you."

She says with a smile, I tense up. There is no way that I will sing. I just nod my head. I turn my back.

" I would love to hear you sing"

Klaus says. And my heart is beating so fast. I look back. He had a big smirk on his face and his beautiful eyes were shining of excitement that he tries to hide. I push on a smile. Then walk fast to my room. I walk in and throw myself on the bed. I let a scream on the pillow. Why mom had to say this? I start kicking on the air. I knew she gonna make me sing. And I will get a stage panic and I will lose my words and I will start crying in front of all those people. In froth of him. 

This was the only thing that I care for how I will look to him. Probably as a baby. He will not like me after it. I will be embarrassed. Wait, no. That's wrong. I stand from my bed and open the suitcase what should I wear? I think so I can stop the thoughts for him. It doesn't matter if he will like me or not. Better no. He is moms boyfriend and soon be husband, end of the story.