Broken

Broken- Chapter seventy one

I woke up in Sean's, with his arms wrapped around me. Of course it was a message from Ed that woke me up. I took his arm off of me and sat up. And yes...I got his sweater.

I climbed on top of him and held his face with my hand. "Wake up," I said moving his head with every syllable.

He sighed and pushed me off of him, turning his back to me. I tsked and went closer to him, whispering in his ear, "I'm not wearing anything under this sweater."

He turned around to face me and smiled, "Really?"

"Pft you wish...you do know I'm a virgin right?"

He sat up and  and and sat on his lap. His hands went under the sweatshirt and he leaned in, "Not for long."

His lips touched mine and my eyes widened. I pushed him away, "W...what?"

"We're gonna have sex. But I know you want to wait for a special time," he kissed me and I smiled so hard I swear my face broke.

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We didn't have a mission today, which was extremely weird but I took advantage of it because I wanted to spend most of my day with Sean.

I looked up when I saw him enter the living room. "Hey."

"I wanna have sex with you."

Shock was beyond evident on his face, he even choked on his water, "What?"

"I wanna-"

"I heard you the first time. I...I just...why do you want to...wow I don't know what to say. I thought you wanted it to be special?"

"Well it's with you...so it is. Plus we're going out on a romantic date first."

"Oh yeah?" He sat next to me and took my hand in his, "How come you're still a virgin? Why didn't you ever do it with...yh."

"She wanted to wait until marriage but then shit happened so she didn't wanna do it with you cuz she thought she was going back to Andrew but she realized she isn't so now she's just desperate...duh," Connor said as he opened his canned coke.

"It's not that I'm desperate...ugh bye Connor."

"Bye baby."

"Fuck off," we laughed and I went upstairs, Sean following behind.

"Are y'all gonna fuck?" I heard Jacob yell from downstairs.

I just showed my middle finger, without turning around to look at him. As soon as we reached in his room, I locked the door. He raised me up and my legs wrapped around his waist. His lips went to my neck and he threw me on the bed. He took my top of and his lips went lower and lower.

The alarm I set on my phone, went off and I slowly got up, letting the covers fall off of me, not caring if Sean saw or not because well...he already did.

He was already up and his back faced me except...he was fully clothed.

"I see somebody's ready for our date," I crawled next to him but he stood up."

"Are you okay?"

"I don't want to talk about it," he sighed and rubbed his head, "I'm going for a walk or something."

"Do you want me to come with-"

"No...just leave me alone."

"If something's bothering you, you can tell me."

"I don't have to tell you anything," he said through gritted teeth.

"What's your problem. Two hours ago you were sucking-"

"Oh my gosh you're so fucking immature," his voice raised and his jaw clenched.

"How am I immature? You know what leave! Not like I spent hours setting up our date. But it's cool be a bitch. See if I care."

"Don't feel I won't go to a strip club."

His words hit my heart and I'm sure it was visible on my face. My eyes were glossy but I just ignored it. He slammed the door and left and I burst into tears.

For the passing hours I just read until he came back. I heard stumbling outside my door before Sean came into my room. He walked up to me and placed his lips aggressively on mine. He reeked of alcohol so I pushed him away.

"You're drunk."

"I only had a couple of drinks," he played with my hair and tried to kiss me again but I pulled away.

"You drove drunk. What the fuck Sean. You could've been hurt."

"But I wasn't...was I?" I let out a sharp breath and he pinned me onto the bed, leaving love bites on my jaw and neck.

I pushed him off of me, "What's wrong baby? Thought you wanted to have sex with me?"

"Not like this. This isn't special. You're drunk and I'm mad at you right now."

His eyes filled up with water, "I'm sorry. I found out my mom died today," he sniffles and buried his head in my shoulder, "and I can't even go to her funeral."

He hugged me tighter as he cried on me. "Aww baby I'm so sorry. But you can disguise yourself."

"No! I don't want to go. This agency took everything from me. My family, friends, I even had a great girlfriend."

I tried to hide the fact that that last part hurt but it didn't work. "I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that."

"It's cool..."

He started crying again, "She didn't even see me graduate. I never went to college. She's not gonna see me get married...if I live that long."

He spent the rest of his night in his room and I stayed in mine. He said he needed space and I understood. But that made me realize I wasn't even thinking about what I'd do if someone Jessie knew died.

I think I'd go to their funeral. Even if it was against Ed's wishes.