Scars of your love

Chapter 9

I sat cross-legged in the middle of my mattress surrounded by piles of papers. Staring at them blankly not knowing what to do or how to start.

I felt like only yesterday I have relieved myself from all the work. Only yesterday I got the midterm grades.

Only yesterday I had enjoyed.

And only yesterday I had another episode of cutting myself.

I look at my now bandaged duct-free thigh.

It has been few days since I have run a blade down my thigh. It has been difficult for me to walk around. Making it difficult for me to do all the daily routines.

Also These few days the pain has been my constant. The only thing that has kept me alert.

The only thing that has add me forget about tomorrow's exam.

But now I had to face the consequences of letting time pass by.

I groan loudly wanting to hit myself for my stupidity. How will I prepare myself for calculus in less than 20 hours?

Even without factoring in that I hate calculus. It is the worst case scenario.

I clutch my head in my hands.

My grade is going to drop and that is going to take away my chance at med school.

I take my pen and start solving the first problem, trying to remember how to do it.

All of the sudden Sabrina voice startles me. I can't remember where I placed my mobile.

I push through the stack of papers searching for my mobile.

My fingers brush the screen. I grab my mobile quickly and answer it without checking the contact name.

"Hello." I say in my most dismissive voice.

The last thing I wanted to do was small talk with someone. I wanted to let the message go to voicemail but I want a distraction for a few seconds so I can collect my thoughts.

All I can hear is silence on the other side. I rub my fingers against my forehead to relieve myself from the tension.

"Hello." This time I say with an edge to my voice.

I moved the phone away from my ear to end the call. When I could hear someone speaking.

"Urgh...hello." The voice is impossible to miss. The masculine voice with just enough softness that has the power to melt anyone on the other side. The voice that I wish I haven't felt like I have known it for my entire life.

"Hey, Tris. This is Alex."

I fall on my ass surprised that Alex is calling me.

The memories of sigma party start playing in front of my eyes.

I open my mouth but not a single word comes out of it.

Several emotions are flowing through me. But the only one I want to stick with is glee.

Alex called me.

If anyone would have said that Alex will call me I would have laughed on their face.

I shut my mouth take a few breaths before a coherent sentence mumbles out of my mouth.

"Hi," I say shyly. Tucking my hair behind my ear.

My hands are damp showing how nervous I am.

God!

I am so dramatic.