Toxic Love

re-con

"As much as I'm loving this view right now. Can someone please tell me what the fuck is going on?" T groans.

"Well me and Ems have got some news. It effects everyone in this room". Jax explains.

"Oh god. Please tell me your back together" Jess squeals. "I missed you so much Em. Please tell me your coming home?".

I'm standing in front of the door. Jax standing supportively behind me, stroking my belly soothingly. Tears are leaking from my eyes as I look at everyone's faces one by one, all attention on me. All expressions of hopefulness. How on earth did I walk away from them. I don't think I will ever be able to explain that.

I turn slightly in Jax's arms and nod at him. Hoping he will get the silent message I'm sending him.

Jax clears his throat, all attention directed at him. "So erm... Em has agreed to give me another chance and I intend to give it my all. I don't deserve her, I know I don't. Anyway yeah we're back together, I think?" He says unsure looking down at me.

    I look back at him and smile through the tears that are falling. I nod slightly and again Jax understands what I'm saying. He kisses my forehead and looks back up at his family.

"Emma is my girlfriend again. Nah fuck that what do you call the mother of your children?" he pauses. "My world. Emma is my world and I'm literally the luckiest guy alive right now" he says. Looking down at me with teary eyes.

"Whatttt?" T shrieks. "The mother of your children Jax. Are you high?".

"Yeah I'm high as a fucker T but it's not from gear. Emma's pregnant. We're having a baby" he shouts the last part and I giggle before realising the cats out of the bag.

I hold my breath and squeeze my eyes shut until the room erupts into cheers and shrieks. I open my eyes to see a mob coming towards us with arms outstretched.

Just before I'm tackled into a big group hug. Jax manoeuvres so it's him that's being invaded and I'm now behind him. Where he was standing seconds ago.

" Oi you fuckers careful. Have you seen how skinny she is. You can't be grabbing her like that. You might hurt her or the baby" Jax shouts being ridiculously overprotective.

Sighing I turn around, roll my eyes and hold my arms out. T, Jess and Levi are first to engulf me. I'm soon in the centre of a big group huddle and looking around I can see I'm not the only emotional one.

"Ems is this real? Am I gonna have a baby cousin... You and Jax are really gonna have a baby?" Levi asks hesitantly.

       "Yeah Levs, I had hospital today. I had no idea I was pregnant but they confirmed it there. I have a scan in the morning to see how far along I am but this is happening. Where having a baby." I say happily.

    Everyone takes it in turns to congratulate me and I'm overwhelmed by their offers of love and support.

  I can't keep up with the conversation and everyone wanting to talk at once. It's too much to follow and it's draining me mentally.

   Breaking from the group I go over to the chair I was sitting on and take a seat, taking a sip of the water still sat there.  Jax looks over with a concerned look. I mean I looked rough anyway but my weight loss hasn't helped my current situation. I was on self destruct but I was heartbroken over Jax. I'm over all that now, I need to focus on the future and we need to leave the past behind us. Me and Jax are starting our own little family and we both need to be the greatest parents we possibly can.