Ellie
My eyes widened at her words but I couldn't help but smile.
"Oh, Sel, this is a good thing." I reminded her and she nodded.
"I'm trying to tell myself it's a good thing but I can't, Derek is so excited and I wish I was but I'm just not. I've wanted a family for a while now," she trailed off and I hugged her again.
"I know you must be scared but you can get through this, I'm right here beside you." I let her cry into my shoulder and I couldn't help but think if this had happened to me.
I know Harry would be supportive and stick by me, but I mentally couldn't do it. I train so hard for my body to be in the shape that it is and I've worked so hard on my mental health since Joe, I just don't know what kind of state I would go in to.
"Do you think we can eat ice cream and have a girls night?" She asked, pulling away and looking at the screen.
"Absolutely," I smiled and stood up, handing her the remote. "And this little baby is going to love Auntie El." I placed a hand to her stomach and she smiled before turning to the tv.
I texted Harry, telling him I'll call him tonight and that Selena was having a rough night.
"Caramel or vanilla?" I called out to her while opening the bottom drawer of the freezer.
"Caramel?" I grabbed it from the top and shut the freezer, grabbing two spoons.
"I haven't met Bear yet," she told me as I walked in. "He's so cute." Sel squished his face in and I laughed.
"Did you choose something?" I looked up to see 21 jump street still on the screen and she shrugged.
"This is fine," I hit play, passing her a spoon and pulling the blanket over us.
I was still shocked that Selena was pregnant. I didn't expect it in the slightest but I knew she would be a great mom.
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I threw all my favourite bikini tops onto my bed, Bear jumping up to grab one.
"No bear!" I had been working all day and come home to pack but Bear had chewed my favourite flip flops and Harry hadn't texted me back all day.
We leave at two in the morning tomorrow, so in eight hours and Harry's suppose to be here but like I said, he's not answering and last time he didn't answer me we broke up.
Just as I was zipping my suitcase my door opened, Harry stumbled in, out of breath and panting.
"Baby, I'm sorry." Bear jumped up his legs and I sighed, sitting on my bed.
"Where were you?" I wasn't mad at him, just anxious because he hadn't been answering me.
"I haven't checked my phone all day and I was packing and I couldn't find my suitcase lock so I had to go get one but they were sold out and-" he had made his way over and sat beside and I was sick of his rambling so I pressed my lips to his.
"It's okay, Harry, I was just worried." He nodded, kissing my temple and standing up.
I watched as he moved my suitcase off the bed and called Bear up to cuddle with while I walked over to my dresser.
"Do you want to smoke?" I had already rolled two joints before he came and was really in the mood for it.
"Yeah," he sat up and I pulled them out, throwing the baggie over to him and opening the window and my balcony doors. I put Bear on his bed before sitting next to Harry. "Is your dad home?" He asked before lighting his.
"No and even if he was, he knows I smoke sometimes." I took the lighter from him and lit the end of mine before handing it back.
It was quiet, other than some music I had put on a little earlier and I didn't mind. I started smoking when Joe died, my ex had gotten me into it and that's the one thing I didn't hate about him.
"Oh fuck," Harry mumbled, putting the rest of his joint out on my balcony. I watched from my bed before doing the same. "I didn't know you smoked," he looked over to me, his eyes already red.
"My ex got me into it when Joe died." I sat down on a bungee chair I had put out here and he did the same.
"Aaron?" I looked over to him, shaking my head.
"No, I had only dated this guy for half a year or something." He nodded and looked back over the railing.
You could somewhat see the Hollywood sign from my balcony, mainly just the city and my backyard though.
My mind was foggy and looked over to Harry, practically drooling at how sexy he was.
"You're so fucking hot." I smiled, biting my lip.
"Shut up," he mumbled back, eyes dropping and all.
I laughed and quickly got distracted when Bear came out with us, laying by my feet.
"I love you so much it hurts me." Harry said, breaking me out of my thoughts. "I look at you and my chest hurts because I never want to live my life without you and I know how easily you could just walk away. I look at you and you're the only person I can see spending the rest of my life with. I want to marry you and have your babies and move," he paused and I was star struck. "I want to move into a house with you, where I can see you all the time and we can be stupid in love. I want to get Bear a friend because why not. You are my future and I need you to know it." I looked at him in awe and it might have just been because I was stoned, but my eyes started watering and I couldn't help it when tears fell.
"Harry we'll have it all one day." I told him before looking out at the city. "I love you too much to let it go to waste. We'll have a house and kids and we'll find Bear a friend and we'll live however we want. Just me and you." I leaned over, pressing a kiss to his lips.
He smiled at me and I returned it, standing up.
"I'm going to make some food and then go to bed, we have an early morning." I stretched and pulled him up next to me.
"Maybe we can just fuck?" He rubbed my shoulders and I laughed.
"Shut up, come on," Bear followed us in and all the way downstairs.
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