Every Little Part of Me | John Murphy // The 100 || ON HOLD

[ c h a p t e r t h i r t y t w o ]

CLARKE, ROAN, MILLER, Abby, and Jackson had left to go to Polis. They would be coming back for Raven, Murphy, and Elys.

Elys and Murphy were in the lab helping Raven out with Becca's things.

The three of them were talking when Raven suddenly paused, looking over at the rocket.

"Raven?" Elys asks.

She looks up at them. "You don't hear that?"

Murphy looks over at Elys. "Get the seizure kit. Abby left it in the office."

But Raven stops them. "No. No, it's—it's okay. It's okay. I'm fine." She then looks at Murphy. "Put that stuff with the gear for the last run. I'll start on the processors."

Murphy shakes his head. "No, no, no. No coding. Luna's not here to whisper in your ear and I'd rather not have your brain melt on my watch."

"I'm not coding. I'm unhooking. Now do what I said. Then you can take a break. I'll need some time with this."

Murphy sighs. "Sure thing." He heads back over and helps Elys wheel a large case away.

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A few hours later, Murphy and Elys are sitting upstairs while Raven continues to get things ready. She didn't want their help.

Elys walks over, leaning against the rails, looking into the main part of the lab. Raven was talking to herself.

"Murphy, something's wrong..." She says, turning to face him. "Miller should've been back by now."

"If they can't make it back, we go to the lighthouse bunker." He suggests.

Elys shakes her head. "For five years? We'll starve. There's no food left in the bunker."

Murphy was relieved to hear that that was the only reason Elys didn't want to return to the bunker. It wasn't because she hated him and the memories anymore. "We don't need to worry about that, Elys. You think Bellamy's gonna let them leave you here? No way. He'll make sure you're in that bunker with him."

"Bellamy's priority is his sister, Murphy. He's gonna make sure they're safe first."

"But you guys are together. Why wouldn't he want you there?"

Elys' eyes widen. He had actually believed all that? She quickly shakes her head. "Bellamy and I aren't together."

Murphy looks up at her in surprise. She sees relief in his eyes and he can't help but smile. "You're not?"

The corner of her mouth quirked up, feeling amused. "Nope. You were so jealous." She says, the smile spreading across her face.

He narrowed his eyes at her in mock anger. "I definitely wasn't."

"Uh huh," Elys says, disbelievingly.

"I know you love me, so there was no need to be jealous."

Her eyes met his, considering his words. She definitely still loved him. Despite how cold and rude she had been to him, he still felt it.

They're interrupted by the main door opening and closing. Elys looks up as Jackson and Miller walk in.

Miller looks at them. "You guys ready or what?"

"Yeah, we're ready," Elys says.

"Sorry, we're late." Jackson apologizes. "There's been some developments. Not all good. They've—"

Miller stops him, placing a hand on his shoulder. Jackson looks at his hand in surprise, a slight flush on his face that Elys immediately notices. She smiles to herself as Miller looks back at her. "Fill you in on the way. Is this everything we need?" He asks, gesturing to all the boxes.

"Yeah," Murphy says, standing up.

"Great. We got it. Go get Raven. We don't have much time. Mass fiery death in five days." He says, eyes shining in amusement. Leave it to Miller to keep things light.

He and Jackson start carrying things to the rover while Murphy and Elys head down the stairs. They find Raven with a welding mask on.

"Raven," Murphy calls.

"Little busy here."

"Yeah, well, whatever's not packed, you need to leave it. It's time to go." He says.

Raven pauses, sliding her mask off. She slowly stands. "I'm not going."

"What the hell are you talking about?" He demands.

"I'm dying, guys..."

"Come on. Abby said if you didn't use your brain, we—"

She cuts him off. "We're past that now."

Elys looks around at the things she had been working on. "You're going to space."

Raven looks up at her, tears in her eyes. "Do you have any idea what it feels like to be in pain every day? When I was spacewalking, everything was right. Your brother did that for me, Elys. And I just want that again."

Murphy looks distraught. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for doing this to you, Raven."

Raven gives him a small smile. "This is not your fault, Murphy. I could deal with losing my leg, but losing my mind..." She trails off, a few tears escaping her eyes.

"What do you want us to tell the others?" Elys asks, quietly.

"Tell them...tell them I floated myself." She says with a laugh. She looks up at them.

Murphy steps up first and hugs Raven tightly. He then steps back to let Elys say goodbye.

Tears fall down her cheeks as she pulls the brunette into a tight hug. "I love you, Raven."

Raven pulls back, tears falling down her cheeks. "Finn would be so proud of you, Elys. He loved you so much."

Elys chokes out a sob at the thought of her brother. "He loved you, too." Despite everything with Clarke, Finn did love Raven very much. And they both knew it.

"Go. Survive." Raven tells them.

Murphy smirks. "Heh. It's what cockroaches do, right?" He grips Elys' hand, looking down at her. "Ready?"

Elys nods. "Let's go survive."