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~Promise?~

Paul's POV

I wasn't thrilled about leaving Tanner to wait for Woods, but he insisted. Starting off a relationship with jealousy didn't seem like a good idea. Matt took me back home form the hospital, saying there was no reason for me to go back to the office after what just happened. Although I agreed with him, it sucks not being able to see Tanner. I kept worrying about him. It was hard not to. I want to trust him with my heart, obviously, but I know how Woods feels about him too.

After taking one of the pain killers the doctor prescribed, I laid down on my bed. Scrolling through Twitter to pass the time, I came across a fan drawing of Tanner. It was really amazing. Intrigued and wanting to see more, I clicked on their account. Of fucking course. The first picture that popped up was a drawing of Tanner and Woods kissing. Shirtless. It made me mad and even though I know it's silly reaction I just can't help it. This only made me worry more about Tanner and Woods out there alone right now.

Thankfully, the pain killers were starting to work and I begin to get groggy. Taking my blanket and pulling it tightly around my shoulder, I curled into a ball and hoped to dream of better things. I trust Tanner. I love Tanner. Stop worrying so much, Paul.

Next thing I know I'm waking up several hours later. When I check my phone, I see an unread message from Tanner. My heart does a little flutter in my chest. I wonder what he wants. I swipe on the notification to read the message. As soon as I do, my heart flutters for a completely different reason.

Tanner: I did a bad thing. . .

Paul: What do you mean?

Tanner: Please don't be mad babe

Paul: Tell me

Tanner: Woods kissed me. . . And I kissed him back.

Everything felt like it was shattering around me. I just now got him, and he's already gone. Not even a few hours into this "relationship" and Woods had already ruined it. I didn't want to respond to Tanner, but I had to know.

Paul: Did you like it?

Tanner: No. Yes? I don't know!

Tanner: I still have feelings for him, but my feelings for YOU are stronger. And I feel terrible about what happened, you have to believe me. Otherwise, I wouldn't of told you.

Paul: . . .Promise me it won't happen again.

Tanner: Yeah sure, of course.

Paul: No, say it - say that you promise not to kiss Woods again.

Tanner: What if he initiates it?

I was getting frustrated at this point. Pretending it didn't happen and just forgiving him would be great, but I know I can't do that. However, it's clear Tanner is avoiding making the promise. I want to believe him. But I also don't want him to hurt me. Too annoyed with him to respond, I put my phone down on my nightstand and curl back up. Bad thoughts and doubts keep swirling around my head, and I want to stop them but I don't know how.

It seems impossible to get comfortable, but finally, I do. Then my phone goes off again. Of course. While it's tempting to just ignore it, and hope it isn't important, I don't. Rolling over out of my comfy spot, I read the new message. From Tanner, of course.

Tanner: Wood's is taking me to work until my truck is fixed.

Paul: wth??

Tanner: He lives close to me and he has to pass my house to get to work anyways.

Paul: WHAT ABOUT GUNNER?! Who you live with??

Tanner: I have to get to work before him, and I don't wanna make him wake up early.

Paul: There isn't ANYONE else who can take you?

Tanner: Not really. . . Plus, he volunteered to.

Paul: That's not surprising.

Tanner: I don't see why you're making such a big deal out of it?

Paul: Let's just. . . forget it. . .I don't want to start our relationship off like this.

Tanner: Ok - I'll see you at work tomorrow.

I don't respond, and he doesn't message me again. Jealousy isn't an attractive quality. On the other hand, neither is playing dumb. Tanner knows Woods has a thing for them. Even if I find away to completely trust Tanner, I'll never trust Woods with him. Apparently Woods has no problems going around kissing other people's boyfriends. Tomorrow is going to be a mess.

A/N - Hey, sorry I died. I moved, so took awhile to pack, unpack, put together new furniture, etc. finally back into it though. Chapters WILL be coming out regularly again. Promise.

~Stay Lovely~