Vixy Wilde {A Zootopia Fanfiction}[COMPLETED]✔️

Chapter 38: Panic Attack

{Song is from Matilda the Musical. It adds effect to this chapter today}

Okay, so, today didn't end up the way I thought it would. Let me explain.

So, Aaron and I were in Heathers, surprisingly getting the roles we thought each other would get; and the entire cast agreed with the director's decision since we've become half the school's favorite couple, surprisingly.

At least that explains why half the females in and around our grade lost their crush on Aaron ever since they found out. Well, today marked almost a week ever since I revealed my most feared secret, my rape.

My tail still twitched nervously since I kept on having this feeling that if I wasn't with people I trusted or mainly Aaron, Jasper, and Viv (who got out of her suspension), someone would pull me away from the school and make me have sex with them.

I bit my lip softly at that thought and tried to shake it off as Aaron and I sat with Viv and Jas at lunch, gripping his paw tightly.

Aaron moved his paw to my shoulder and gently rubbed it. "Vix!?" I snapped out of my thoughts, feeling Aaron's paws on mine, Vivian's paws on my shoulders and Jasper had his paw on my arm, Aaron having snapped me out of them.

I took a deep breath and relaxed before nodding. "Y-yeah?" I asked.

Jasper spoke, his fur bristled from worry. "It's just, you were kind of worrying us," he muttered.

Aaron nodded, his paws squeezing mine. "Yeah, your tail was lashing furiously," he then murmured in a lower voice, "You okay?"

I pulled away and nodded before verbally speaking. "Y-yeah, don't worry about me guys," I reassured them, putting on a convincing smile.

The three of them gave a glance before shrugging, sighing, or nodding before giving me some space. I felt Vivian kiss my head sisterly. "If you ever want to talk, I'm open Vix," she murmured before breaking away.

Aaron and I luckily had the same classes together, not to mention rehearsal afterward, after lunch. So he kept holding my paw reassuringly. However, once rehearsal, my anxiety lost control.

So, we were just going over the fact with the tech and the actors that we'd only be doing part of Dead Girl Walking (THANK FUCKING GOD!) since I was still getting over my rape reveal.

Oh, quick thing, my teacher told me she was open to talking about it cause she had watched her mom and sisters be sexually assaulted.

Anyways, we were going over the scene where my character, Veronica, ends up killing Heather Chandler, which was my favorite scene, let me tell you, when she does the creepy laugh trying to forge a suicide note, and then screams, I had to pause cause of how much the cast, crew, and myself were laughing. In fact, I heard Aaron mumble underneath his breath that he fucking loves my laugh.

I honestly hate it cause I make either hiccup noises or snort like I'm on some kind of drug like crack, and everyone finds it adorable when it is, to me at least, embarrassing.

Sorry, I keep getting sidetracked. Anyways! I overheard some students joking about sexual assault and I felt my heartbeat pick up.

I tried to take silent, deep breaths and my tail twitched furiously. But, my anxiety took over and everything in my fine line of hearing faded to where it was a continuous ringing in my ears. My claws sheathed and unsheathed in and out of my paws, my fur bristled, my tail lashed, I pressed my ears up against my head and my breathing picked up and I started hyperventilating.

I heard a clamor of voices, worried, annoyed, excited, taunting, every single kind of tone. I was shaking slightly and I felt my eyes sting from tears in them that were leaving them.

I closed my eyes, trying to calm down and bit my lip hard, almost drawing blood from it. I felt someone sit me down in the green room backstage, my senses dulling from all the anxiety. I soon felt a gentle paw on my cheek and another holding my paw gently. I thought that I wouldn't be able to calm down until everything turned quiet.

I slowly opened my eyes for them to lock onto Aaron's bright green gaze. I slowly started to calm down, feeling tired and lightheaded more than anything. Aaron brought himself to sit down next to me, trying to reassure me.

He wrapped his arm around my shoulders, his paw resting gently on the side of my neck. I sighed shakily and leaned up next to him, his scent washing over me like a wave. I was still trembling and my fur still bristled.

He twisted his tail around mine gently and tightly, his lips pressed up against my head and he softly hummed a small tune to help keep me calm.

I slowly stopped trembling and twitched my black tail tip. I felt Aaron's paw slowly trace his paw up and down my arm like it was a bit of rope around a porch swing.

After a bit, he turned a bit and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close to his chest and let me softly whimper, but not by a lot.

He kept his lips pressed up against my head and he slowly rocked me. "You wanna just stay here for a bit, Vix?" he whispered gently. I only nodded and he just tightened his arms around me. He continued to have the room still and quiet to let me calm down.

I nuzzled him and felt him kiss my head and face a few times and felt his lips briefly press up against mine, but it managed to make me smile. I closed my eyes and let myself calm down. 

All I could muster by the end of the day was a thank you to Aaron.

{A/N: Guys, I wanna say really quick that this chapter was based off how my anxiety was acting up badly yesterday and I know I haven't gone deeper into Vixy's panic attacks, so I thought, with my panic attack from yesterday still in my head, in a good way, reminding myself its all in my head, dedicated this chapter to it. HOPE Y'ALL ENJOYED! ^_^}