I Didn't Mean To Make You Mine (boyxboy)

Chapter 26

I want to take your heart and locked it away then throw the key so can't take it back....

Present.....

"Because of you I'm like this! Because of you I'm alone, because of you I never trusted people, if that's not enough...why not just take my life?!." Ming's voice broke on his chagrined.
He thought he mastered that. He thought he is good at camouflaging his emotions and burry them deep inside him where they won't have a chance to get out.

"Mingkwan! Im telling you, stopped this nonsense.. Your mother is not well!." Eadric reprimanded his son. Ming scoffed at that.

He turned to leave slamming the door behind him. He stopped on top of the grand staircase looking around the huge house, recalling his sad memories in there. How the warm and spacious place became suffocating. The happy memories he had with his older brother became a faint dreams.
He is having a hard time recalling his brother's smile.
How the gentle teenager would hugged him full of loved but sometimes he those are just the fruit of his imagination.

Did P'Fane loved him? Maybe, but how come those part of his life got drowned by sadness and pain?.

He run down the stairs like the devil is after him. He took the keys of his car from the surprised driver and bodyguard but he ignored the protest of the man.

He need to feel the breezed of the night.

Kit entered his mind, he can't let go of him. Even he is hurt by his words he realized he can't let go of the only person aside from Forth and his Dad, who looked at him like he is nothing special.

He fished out his phone and turned the small gadget on.

He dialled Kit's number and happiness flooded his chest when the call connected right away after the first ring.

"MINGKWAN!, I'm so sorry.. I didn't mean what I said."  The frantic voice of Kit travels to Ming's hearing without even a hello.

"Hello to you." Ming chuckles clearing the lump on his throat.

"Hi, um..Ming are you mad at me?." Mingkwan stayed quiet basking at the concerns on Kit's voice. He slowed down the car feeling his anger subsided and change something else.

"Hey!, I'm just - I'm just scared, I'm afraid that now that I totally fall in for you, you suddenly changed your mind and forget about me, of course you can do that...I am nothing compared to you." Kit chuckled since when did he looked down on himself.

Mingkwan processed what he heard, his heart suddenly flooded by emotions new to him, warmth. Kit is brewing nervous by the silence from the other line.

"You have....fallen, for me?." Mingkwan asked slowly.

"I- I wait I never said that?." Kit said unsure if he really said that.

"You are not allowed to take it back." Ming laugh. He parked his car beside the road not trusting his shaking hands.

"Oh, um okay.. You see I can't offer you anything bit my parents are right, I can't let fear won just because I'm worried of useless thing." Kit took a deep breath before blowing the air out from his chest.
"Mingkwan Daichapanya, will you be my boyfriend officially?, I may not on the same league as you but all I can give you is all of me nothing more." Kits chest felt lighter after saying that, like a heavy rock that been over it is lifted finally.

Mingkwan choked in the sudden happiness. He touch his face and felt that the tears that refused to come out when he was with his parents suddenly came out like the floodgates are open.

"Ming?." Kit asked worriedly when he heard nothing from the other line. He gripped his phone tightly, he was glad he is at their apartment when his mom said he can go home.

Ming's shoulders shook as he rest his forehead against the steering wheel trying to muffle the sob that too stubborn to quiet down.

But the sound still manage to escape between his mouth.

"Mingkwan!, what's going on? Hey? If - if you don't feel the same way..its okay..you don't need to answer me." Kit said sadly, taking the silence the wrong way.

Ming covered his face with his palm, his lips quivered as he close his eyes tight. But the wetness on his eyes escape wetting the fingers with tears.

Kit was shocked when he heard broken sobs from the other line.
He worriedly stared at his mobile as if it will answer his questions. His heart constricted against his chest while listening to the painful howls.

Mingkwan's breathing comes with a gasp, his pain, his sorry, his hate, his anger, the build up self pity that been inside him is pouring out like a dam.

"Ming, Mingkwan.. Please ..what's going on..are you hurt?..are you okay?." Kit asked worriedly that send Ming to edge even more.

"Ple- please, thank - you." Ming tried forming coherent words but they came out like a stutter.

Kit is walking so and fro in his bedroom the worry is eating him. What he felt for the CEO is not friendship nor curiosity but he love him..he maybe noob on this kind of feelings but he know he cared too much.

"Mingkwan, where are you? I coming, wait for me...don't move." Kit run out his room looking for his keys when Ming talked with the hoarse voice.

"No, I will go to you." The almost whisper replied.

"Please tell me are you okay?, Mingkwan you are worrying me.!"

"Thank you."

"What are you thanking me for?! Hurry up and come here!" Kit anxiously sat down with his feet jumping up and down.

"Thank you for being you." Ming smiled. He is fine. He will be fine. He is not a child anymore. He have someone who will be there when he needs someone to talk to not someone that will shut him out of their world because the are sad.
Someone that will leaned a hand when he is falling not going to passed him away like he is a liability.

Kit will be there to mend the broken pieces of Ming.
Kit will help him heal the gaping wounds no one offered to patched up.

Kit saved him from himself.

"Wait for me." Ming said with a smile as he starts his car and drive.