Ice And Fire

Plus and Minus

If someone asks me about how does it feels like to be in a relationship, then probably I won't be able to answer properly.

It is really nice to be with him but still I was not sure about some stuff. Honestly our relationship couldn't be any better but sometimes I let my stupid mind wander and think rubbish.

This is one of them.

Its been three glorious years and I don't know where to start with. Well yes, now we are in our senior year. Almost complete.

See like every relationship, our also had many plus points and some minus points.

They were so simultaneously happening that it confuses me sometimes.

At the start we were so close and yeah I would call it so romantic.

Yes, I know that stage lasts for a limited period, but in our case it didn't last for more than two weeks.

Not complaining, but like any girl, I would like this stage to last for almost a month. Is it too much I'm asking for?

I know he is really nice person for me and will always help me out in trouble but sometimes it could be too much.

As I went more and more deeper in the relationship with him, I realised how dependant I grew.

Even Jess scolded me for this once, at that time I was in my sophomore.

"I am really confused Jess. I don't know whether I should go to the party or not!" I cried to her as I did my whining dance.

"Of course you should. Its like the biggest party of the year." She replied to me as her fingers kept texting.

"Oh Jess! I don't know. Well maybe I'll ask Lucas. He will tell me." I happily replied and pulled out my phone from my pocket.

"Hold up girl. What has happened to you? Can't you even go to party on your own will? Tell me if he is being possessive or hurting you in some way. Girl, I'll make sure that I break his bones." She shouted back as she dumped her phone on the bed.

"Nah! Nothing like that. Its just I think he should know." I timidly replied.

"Well, but I don't think you were telling him that you are going to a party. It seemed like you were asking for his permission." She stood up sternly and spoke in a angry tone as she cleaned her study area.

I followed her to the table and started helping her.

I said " You know he kind of makes right decisions for me and I've no problem with it."

"Is he your father?" She shot back at me. From her eyes I could clearly make out how angry she was right now.

"Nope. But you know he just don't want me to be into trouble. Also, parties are the best place to get into trouble." I replied as if Lucas was speaking from me.

"You say what? Like seriously Riles, I can't believe its you who is saying that parties are trouble. Girl, you love 'em." She poured out her thoughts as she tapped on my shoulder.

"Yes I do. Woah! What has happened to me!" I exclaimed in astonishment.

"See, don't let anyone ever change the real you. If he loves you for who you are then I'm pretty sure that won't ask you to change." She started explaining me and continued "there is a fine line between protecting someone and suppressing someone.
Here in you case you are suppressing yourself. Just be you. The fearless, fiery you. Please be my original Riles. Plus I don't like Lucas in disguise of Riles. Keep the fire inside you alive, even if it means leaving him." Said my angry Jess. Well, somewhere over there she was right and very wrong at the last six words.