Ice And Fire

Little Problems causes jealousy.

'Umm... You are right actually." He started speaking. Right now, I was really upset and angry with him.

He just dragged me out from my besties party and didn't even let me say a goodbye or something.

He cannot just do that. Just because he was what? Jealous?

I didn't reply him in anyway. I wanted him to sense that I was so upset with him.

On one side he doesn't want us to reveal our relationship and then he cannot tolerate the fact some other guy tried to hit on me, just because he thought I'm single. And it is so common!!
I don't get him!! What does he wants.

Things can't go like this in future too.
At some point we'll we apart due to our studies and career and he cannot just control me.

And I'm just not somebody to be controlled either.

At last, when he sensed that I'm not in a mood to talk back to him, he said

"I'm so sorry. I know I just messed it up. I don't what just happened. I just felt like so angry and i just felt like beating the shit out of him straight away. Already I didn't want you to go away and then this happened. I guess I wasn't ready for this kind of emotion." He confessed.

"This emotion is called jealousy. It is common and maybe you'll always feel that. Its new to you, not to me." I replied.

"Yep right. Its just that I'm exploring all new set of emotions. Especially in our relationship. Like we just fought, apologised and then there were hearts and flowers and then this jealousy thing and anger and the most painful part is realisation." He replied.

I really loved the way he put his emotions into words. I was left speechless.

Somehow I managed to speak "Is it because we are getting over will school and because we'll be moving over in our lives? Is it anything related to that?" I asked. I don't know why I asked this, but actually was the right question.

"Yeah kind of. You know how much I love to stay around to you. I just feel you are my treasure and I have responsibility too. I just don't ever wanna see you getting into troubles or crying because you were sad or something.
Also, I know once we get into our actual lives, we'll be spending a lot of time apart. I want you to be this successful editor and I want you to be happy and what not. Just the thing that I will be always scared and will be waiting for you always, will cause only problems.
I know it'll be distracting for you and as well as for me. I don't wanna get into way of your success. I just don't. " He confessed slowly and very calmly with loads of admiration in his eyes.

"Yeah I know it well. Also, we are just so immature maybe? We are just starting into another stage and I've heard how stressful it is. I'm just kind of person, who just nobody could control.. Other than myself. I know I'll be getting myself in troubles always. Just the thing, that I know that you are by my side always, just pumps me up to be more of a rebel." I confessed.

"So its like you've grown dependant of me?" He asked very politely.

"Almost yeah. I also don't want you to worry from miles apart, about me getting into troubles." I reply.

"It wouldn't even happen, till you stay like a normal human being. I guess, a civilised citizen will suit you." He replied with a chuckle.

With the support of his hands, he sat on the wall, and I also sat next to him.

This conversation was really something. So true and so relieving. This conversation was must needed.

I always wanted a conversation like this but we never really talked.