Ice And Fire

Cry baby

I reached home and dropped down to my bed. 

Powerless. 

It wasn't the kind of story I wanted for myself. I myself know how much five years mean!! 

The person who can't just stay away from him for a day just said to take a break! For five years!! Way to go Riley!

I was cursing myself badly for all of this. I was about to call him and say to  drop this plan but then I realised how hard he has been working for his future. 

He wasn't lazy and laid-back like me. We all know that. 

Tears rolled down my eyes dropping down on the bed and I was so weak to even wipe it.

I wish Jess were here. She is somewhere out with Jeremy.
This is another situation that irritates me. 

Why won't even Jess accept that she has a crush on him.

She dated quite a few guys but ended up breaking up with them.

She is unpredictable sometimes. It's used to be terrible ways. 

After remembering the days after her breakup, a chill passed through my body. 

I sat up straight on my bed, worried about what will happen. I opened my phone went into gallery. 

I was disillusioned right now. Everything is changing. Everything after school will be new. Absolutely new. 

I even don't know how to deal with it. 
Till today I've seen people working hard for jobs and earning for their day to day needs, and I've to do the same thing now?

Actually earn for myself.

I'm already lazy thinking about that. Seriously, wow. I've got a beautiful relationship almost ending up and I can do nothing about it.

I opened my contacts and I decided to call Jake, my brother.

He is in New York, in his new college and practically enjoying his life with a  new girl almost every week.

He has never been a stable guy on relationships. He has seen so many breakups but I've never seen him like cry or being really sad. 

Especially the first time,  when he broke up with Rachel. He used to tell me how she was the love of his life and everything. It ended somehow and he never told me why.

I called him. One ring. Two Rings. Three rings.  "Err..riles? How are ya?" he picks up the call and says in a laid back chilled tone.

"Hey JJ." I replied as I tried to sound all okay.

"Don't even try.  Don't even try to pretend with me that you're okay. What's cooking up Riley? Did that neighbors boy said ya something?" He spoke in his super deep voice with concern of this whole world that maybe I've not ever seen.

"No no not Lucas." I replied all stuttering badly.

"Well riles I know it's him. Totally him. Gimme his number. I'll knock him down for sure." he sounded angry.

"Oh will you shut up. I'll tell you what you happened" I replied and told him everything that happened and what we are planning to do so. 

It was an emotional story honestly.  I mean by the end I was crying and I really wished JJ was here with me.

An whole hour went by and I competed my part. I was literally in tears. 

"Umm.. Okay..wait for a minute." He said after a long pause after I completed telling him about what happened.