Ice And Fire

Do You?

I've never been so worried in my life. Nor I've felt like this in my whole life.

I wasn't able to sleep well yesterday night. My whole weekend went on like this only.

Everybody looked more calm and relaxed than me.
On the other hand I was restless and kept thinking about him.

Jess did her duty well. She didn't let me speak to Lucas. She kept on reminding me about my challenge and tried her best to keep me busy.

I really didn't know what jess was hiding but whatever it is, she is just great at hiding it. She seemed relaxed and so cool.

Time crawled real slow. I watched movies and often replaced the lead male roles to Lucas.

Imagined if the movie was reality and we were in there instead of the characters.

Yes, that kind of helped me.

It was Sunday night. I was lying straight on my bed looking at the ceiling. The fact that tomorrow I am going to propose him was driving me crazy.

Tomorrow can be the day when we got together or it could be the day I made a fool of myself.

I was praying to god to help me out wishing that he says a yes and hoping for the earth to swallow me inside out of fear.

That day I realised what anxiety is. Also, how can fear take control over you.

At last after a lot of thinking, I took help of songs to help me sleep.

I did sleep after that.

Music was the cure for my love sickness from that day.

Next morning, Cass woke me up shouting "Riles! Wake up otherwise we are going to be late!"

Her high pitched voice pierced my ears. I really don't like her shouting. she doesn't have any control on her vocal chords.

Instantly, Jess climbed over me and smiled gleefully "Cheer up girl. Today is the big day!" She said

"Shh! Not in front of them" I covered her mouth with my hand as I saw Cass and Christi behind her.

I went out of the covers, pulled out a T-shirt from Jess's closet, again which she never wore.

I was freaking scared and I was not able to decide whether I should dress like everyday or go for something special?

I'll dress casually special then. I know it doesn't sound like any dressing up style, but I needed something.

I made a high ponytail, which made my straightened hair look super sleek.

I wore my best sneakers. Okay, they are Jess's.

For a little touch up, I painted my lips with kiwi lip gloss.

I looked fine enough.
Ready to go and propose.

Too much for motivation of the day.

We all walked to school, talking and laughing casually.

Jess knew that I was scared so she held my hand throughout the way.
If he doesn't like me back, I know that Jess will always love me. Well, I guess that is why we have best friends.

My great best friend's tale.

We reached school and Jeremy walked towards us and smiled at Jess. For me, I kept on wondering if something was going on.

I met Lucas standing near the door, holding a book and was deeply soaked into it.

I went next to him and whispered "I win!"