One Shots

Hurts Like Hell

Lauren's P.O.V.

11:28 PM

There I sat in front of the bar wanting to get away from the world for a second. Everything seemed to grow dimmer and dimmer for me. The dream of performing in front of a huge crowd seemed to go farther away.

I should have stayed in college, I chuckled as I downed the rest of my drink. Maybe then my parents would still be with me, I sniffled as I turned around to look at people filling the bar. Not the time to cry Jauregui.

Yet here I was getting ready to perform in this lousy place full of men who needed a quick fuck, a group of women who wanted to find prince charming. Why do people still try to find love at bars? It reminded me of the time I met Ally. Oh yeah, I was one of them. I chuckled at myself as past memories started to overcome me.

I smiled as the tears filled my eyes, My sweet Ally. I closed my eyes and dumped my head in my hands as I wiped however many tears were in my eyes. God, a year later and that woman still affects me like this. I looked up and decided to leave before the so called DJ called my name. I dropped money by my drink and quickly left the shitty bar. Tonight just didn't feel right. But when doesn't it?

I pulled out a freshly new cigarette out of my shirt pocket lighting it up with a strangers light. I kept walking as I started to realize that I had shit to do the next day and maybe going out this late was the probably the worst decision I made.

It wouldn't be the first time, I chuckled as I knew my head was just making shit up. "God, I feel stupid," I said out loud as I looked at the sky as I was actually talking to a God. "Why did you bring her to me only for her to break my heart? Was the others not enough?" But no response.

God should be known as a pussy rather than some strong being. 

"Maybe to teach you not to be an asshole," I heard from next to me as I looked at them with a smirk.

"Oh me? An asshole? You are one to talk," I said as I dropped my cigarette to put it out. "You know maybe God decided to put you in my life to tell me hey no one is ever going to love you," I said and looked down tightening my jaw, "That would explain so much more rather than because I'm a typical asshole, Ally."

"You left me, asshole," Ally scoffed as she walked beside me I could feel her rolling her eyes at me. The only thing she ever knew how to do honestly.

"Because you broke my heart," I yelled out loud as I looked at her. "You broke me, I never did anything to you. I told you everything, I loved you. I love you," I said to her as she looked down with tears in her eyes. "Yeah, it hurts doesn't it," I chuckled out as I wiped my nose on my long sleeve.

It should hurt her but I know it didn't. Never really hurt her.

"It fucking hurts," I said as I looked beside me but just like before she was gone. A cat ran across the street from me as I started to think maybe I was yelling at the cat rather than an actual human being.

"I'm going crazy am I?" I told myself as I sat down on the curve almost contemplating if I should even go home. Maybe dealing with my roommate would be better than dealing with my fantasies. But then again she was already dealing with one person she can't deal with another.

"Are you okay?" I heard someone ask me as I scoffed and looked up at the stranger. "I'm sorry to bother. I just, I heard you yell and I wanted to know if you were okay," they gave me a soft smile as I let out a huge sigh. Be nice, Lauren. They are being nice as my roommate would put it.

I stood up brushing the dirt off my jeans as I looked at them, "No, the woman I loved left me for a bigger asshole than myself, which is fucking funny actually. All my secrets are out to the world,  so now my parents hate me, I have no friends to consult with just a roommate who falls asleep once I start ranting to her. I continue to dream a fucking fantasy that will never fucking happen because I am a nobody. I have not slept for God knows how many days. I'm, I don't know. I'm not okay is what I am trying to say."

I looked at them as they gave me a sympathetic smile. I couldn't help but wonder why the hell did I just open up like that? Was that I that broken? What the hell were they even thinking honestly? Was I crazy? Were they even a real person?

"It just fucking hurts you know," I said as a sob came out of me. "I tried and I couldn't keep her, or my family, or my friends. I lost them. I lost myself," I continued as they came closer to me and hugged me. "I'm lost," I started to cry as they just held me and told me that I was going to be okay.

After what seemed like hours of us just standing out in the cold holding each other. They let go and smiled at me as if they already knew everything that was going wrong and they were going to help me. Why not give it a try? Why not take another fucking risk?

"I'm sorry, I'm Lauren," I said as I put my hand out that was probably full of tears and boogers but they didn't mind as they grabbed my hand shaking it, laughing a bit. Their laugh was beautiful. Really beautiful.

"I'm Camila."

Yeah, maybe there was a God.

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I promised some camren shit. I know, I know it's sad at first but I mean it does end happy soooooo not that bad right??

- noah