One Shots

Good Times Over Bad Times

April, 14 2017.

it's getting bad again, camila. - Lauren Jauregui sent at 2:35 AM

they won't shut up. and they won't leave me alone. - Lauren Jauregui sent at 2:36 AM

why won't they go away? - Lauren Jauregui sent at 2:36 AM

i just want them to go away. - Lauren Jauregui sent at 2:37 Am

Make them go away, please camila. please.- Lauren Jauregui sent at 2:37 AM

lauren, i am so sorry i can't make them go away. i know you hate hearing it but you are so much greater than what they put you out it be. you truly are. trust me. i'm right here for you. don't let them tear you down. you are stronger than them. you are not what they say you are, you know that right? you're beautiful, you know? so damn beautiful. you are so fucking smart. you are so cool and badass. and you know just what to say when i get down. you're always here for me. as i am always here for you. don't let them tear you apart. you are strong lauren. so fucking strong. okay? you got to believe me when i say this but i think you are the strongest person i know. these set backs are just that; set backs. they are there to let you come back stronger and better than ever. i know they suck and i know at times they take longer to get rid of and at times they aren't. i really fucking wish i can take them away from you. but i can't. but that doesn't mean i can't be here for you. you are amazing lauren. so goddamn amazing. remember that, okay? - Camila Cabello sent at 9:43 AM

okay. - Lauren Jauregui sent at 9:45 AM

4 Months Later: August 14, 2017

Camila was once again staring at her phone as if something were going to pop out of it any second now. It had been months since that last conversation with Lauren. Worried about Lauren was an understatement for Camila. She was terrified at where Lauren could be, and what Lauren was doing, and who Lauren was with. It was a pile of questions that Camila never seemed to get the answers for. 

She hadn't known it but there she was again typing a 'hey lauren.' and never sending it. Then again Camila had made the crazy assumption that this time for Lauren's downtime was because she had talked about a boy named Shawn to her. Was it Lauren's favorite topic? No. Of course it wasn't. Sometimes Camila regretted ever bringing up Shawn but she knew better. Shawn was not the cause of Lauren's downtime. Lauren was the cause of Lauren's downtime.

And maybe she should have sent a message months ago whether it was a 'hey lauren.' or a 'i'm so sorry for bringing up canadian boy and i promise you i never will. i will never bring him up again just please talk to me. i miss you for fucks sake.' But she knew Lauren would never reply. Lauren would probably freak out if Camila ever messaged her first. Shit, even Camila would freak out if she ever messaged anyone first.

Lauren was first to say 'good morning' and last to say 'goodnight' it was just Lauren's thing. And with school being in the way for Camila messaging back was always so difficult. With every good morning it had followed with an apology from Camila saying she was late again for class and once again was rushing to get to school. And with every goodnight it had followed with Camila apologizing for taking a nap which led to her full night time slumber.

And Lauren was never upset by it. Lauren never once told her she should go to sleep early and maybe put an alarm clock as her parents or professor would sometimes say. She Instead made Camila feel better by telling her that she also ran late for work (both knowing that was a complete lie). She never told Camila that sleeping so much would effect her health the way her parents or doctors would tell her. Instead Lauren always told her she was lucky and that one day she'll go over just to see how good her bed was if she kept falling asleep so much.