I had no business loving you,
I fell so hard and it took me so long to get back on my feet.
My love for you was colorful and beautiful.
It was amazing.
I miss having that color in my life.
I miss the butterflies, the glow.
The way you made me feel.
I had no business loving you,
But I don't regret it.
I can't tell anyone about the girl I loved, now I see her in everything.
For a while I thought I wouldn't be able to breathe without you.
I breathe easy now but the air feels different in my lungs.
I can't make sense of it all, I can't tell you why it still hurts,
It isn't supposed to.
I swear I'm fine.
Don't worry about me I'm fine.
I just wish you were mine.
I see people in love and I wish I had had that with you.
I'm tired of explaining our situation, I'm tried of trying to explain why you don't love me, I'm tired of people telling me what I need to do to get you back, I'm tired of people talking about us like they know something I don't.
So tired.
Don't misunderstand,
I'm happy know,
I smile wider,
Laugh harder.
I sometimes just wish I could share it all with you.
