I think the hardest part of being in pain is the fear of other people not being able to tolerate you while you're in pain.
I've experienced pain and pretty much every person who has seen me deal with pain distanced themselves.
In fact, because I feel things so strongly and react to things differently, because I'm more sensitive to certain things people back away because they can't deal with the pressure that comes with providing comfort. And some just don't want to.
I have this habit of bearing my soul. Whether it be through drunk texts or 3 long ass books on Wattpad, I tend to lay it all out there. And while I'm sure it's all a great read it doesn't exactly draw people in.
That's the hardest part about going through pain, no one wants to be around you when you're really going through it. Of course no one would admit to not wanting to be around those in pain, that's because we like to believe that we are more selfless than we actually are.
