I never realized how hot and cold I could be until you told me.
It's not deliberate, it's hard for me.
I can't make a decision without second guessing,
I can't write without erasing,
I can't say yes with wondering what would happen if I said no.
I'm stubborn and opinionated but I question all of my beliefs
I can't trust people or let them in without questioning their intention.
Sometimes I care to much, sometimes I don't care at all.
Sometimes I feel like I can do anything, other times I feel like I can't do anything at all.
I'm complicated and confusing, I confuse myself all the time.
I wish you could see inside my mind, you'd see how often I think about you.
You'd see that I love you as much as I say I do.
You'd see that even though I can't find the right words, my thoughts about you never changed.
You'd see how much I care, maybe you'd see my intentions.
You'd see that even on my worst days I still wish nothing but the best for you.
I wish you could see inside my mind, maybe you'd find the answers you're looking for.
I don't know what I want, I don't know what you want.
You say I should spend time working on myself but I don't know how to explain to you that no matter how much time I spend with my thoughts they'll never make sense.
I'll tell you one thing and then completely change my mind.
Its not on purpose. I swear.
If I could change one thing it would be my brain and its complexity.
Because I feel like it's the one thing that stopped you from loving me.
