Bigger Than Most

Chapter 13💙

Ranae

           I was nervous as heck right now. I never told anyone about what I go through at school or outside of school. Running into Jared with Ghost when he said he didn't want me around any other guy was intense, So I know when school starts back it's gonna be a problem.

But he's not going to control me, and plus I don't know why but I feel safe around Ghost and I don't even know him well enough.

But I feel like I want to tell him everything, just like let it all out and he wouldn't judge me, he'll listen. He got this vibe to him that I like.

"I'll tell you, But first, What is your real name?" I asked him. "And don't say Ghost" I added and he chuckled.

"It's Ghost" he said. His smirked turned into a smile. Lord.

"You know that name is stupid right?"

"Hating. And I didn't pick it" he said lighting another blunt. That's his third one with me.

"So who did?"

"The streets. I don't really be out like that unless I have to be, but when I do, no one notices when I come or leave so" he said shrugging.

"Well the streets is stupid. But I want to know your birth name" I said watching him exhale the smoke from his nose, He was looking ahead, He was just so fine it's annoying. I couldn't help but stare.

"Anthony" he said looking at me. A smile came to my face and he rolled his eyes leaning back in his seat.

"It like it" I said chuckling.

"It's ight, but back to him" he said referring to Jared. I don't know why we was still here.

"Why we still here?" I asked playing with my zipper on my jacket.

"Cause I'm waiting on you to tell me wassup, stop stalling" he said. I let out a big sigh sitting back.

After a few minutes of telling and explaining everything to him I waited for what he had to say. I was nervous about what he had to say.

He was just gazed blankly at me. I started to feel so insecure and bad for myself. He's probably thinking so I'm weak.

"So he was the one answering yo phone and The Who did that to you?" He said referring to my neck. I nodded yeah.

"Why didn't you tell nobody? All yo people was at that party. You got a pops for a reason. He would've gotten fucked up"

"I didn't know it was his birthday party And all his people was there too, it would have been bad. Plus I can't tell my dad, he's never around as much anyway"

"Fuck does that mean? They'll get popped too, you tweaking" he said shaking his head.

"And Nobody knows about anything" I said shrugging. "Too embarrassing" I said lowly looking at my finger nails.

"It's not. You just shy, too sensitive, and too nice and people take advantage of that shit. And I'm sure if you tell yo mama she gone deliver it to him, or just call him"

"But I can't help that I'm like that. And it's not a bad thing to be a nice person" I said shrugging. "And I can't do that"

"You right, but you can still be a nice person and still beat people ass for fucking with you" he said getting on his phone.

. "A nice ass whooping, especially him, which he already got coming, and you can you just choose not to"

I couldn't say nothing cause he was completely right. I needed to stand up for myself better. And I don't want to tell my parents because I'm scared to and I don't know how. If my big brother Cameron was here I would tell him, he was my best friend In The family but he left like four years ago and I don't know why. Haven't heard from him since. I didn't want to talk about it anymore.