LOUISE POV
I don't know what im doing.
It hurts me hearing that word from my love one's, but i deserve it. I deserve to call that way. Malandi.
I don't know where im going but i just continue walking. Some people are looking at me because im crying.
Lalo akong napaiyak ng matapilok ako, kahit na naka tsinelas lang ako. And there i felt someone hugging me. But instead of feeling strange i feel comfortable.
Déjà vu.
I remembered the day i confess my feelings for Mark. I remembered how i run fast. Kung paano ako nadapa sa kakatakbo. Kung paano ako pinatahan ni Daddy, Ni Mr. Kiel.
"Dahil nanaman sakanya?" I heard the man said while hughing me.
I know that voice!
"Daddy," i finally said it.
Narinig ko siyang humibga ng malalim hanggang sa may naramdaman akong tubig na tumolo sa balikat ko.
"Parang nagkaroon ako ng anak na bata palabg at first time magsalita, tapos Daddy pa ang unang sinabi. That's what i feel right now," i heard him chuckle.
Maybe what ever happens, he's still my father.
He's the only man i know i can find comfort. The only man i know can erase all the pain i feel.
"Alam mo ba?" Tanong niya, hindi pa din kami naghihiwaly patuloy parin ako sa pagiyak kasi alam ko baka bukas hindi ko na ulit pwede tong gawin. "Malapit na akong mawala."
My world stop. My tears stop. I automatically look at him.
"What do you mean?" I nervously asked.
"My life is ending," he said and smile at me.
A genuine smile. I smile im scare to loose.
Pakiramdam ko lalong bumigat ang nararamdaman ko. Pati paghinga ko bumigat. I can't take it.
I can't believe it.
"Hanggang kailan?" I asked out of nowhere.
"Hindi paalam, pero baka biglaan." Sagot niya.
After hearing his answer, im hitting myself. I punch my legs again and again. I slap my shoulder.
"Wag mong saktan ang sarili mo," pigil saakin ni Daddy.
But i can't help it. I deserve all of this. Dahil to sakin. Sana una palang tumakas na ako. Sana una palang hindi na ako nagpabilog sakanila. Sana hindi na mangyayari to.
Then daddy hug me just to stop me. I just cry to him.
If this is just a dream please wake me up!
"I invited you here not because i want you to get hurt because of Heather and Mark. I invited you because i want you to comeback to us. I want to be back, as Louise. As the Louise we know. As the Louise we loved." He said while holding my shoulders.
It hurts me seeing him in pain. It even hurts me knowing he will die soon.
The days i want them to suffer flashback in my mind.
"I want them to feel what i feel," i angrily said. "I want them take my revenge." I said while talking to Tito Jordan.
"That smile will fade," i said looking at Mr. Kiel and my other sisters. "That smile will replace by pain."
"I want them die!" I shouted seeing them happy got me angry! "Why they can't think of me?! Why do they always forget me?!"
"Dad, im sorry." I said after sobbing.
