[101] I'm just kinda tired you know? I want to stop trying and not care for a few days. I'm a little tired of feeling like a failure.
[102] I'm hungry, but I can't eat. I'm tired, but I can't sleep. I'm sad, but I can't cry. I'm suicidal, but I can't die.
[103] I tried really hard. I promise. But one day I just woke up, and I just couldn't handle it anymore.
[104] "I'll be okay.. Is that what you want me to say?"
[105] "Tonight is just one of those nights where I miss you terribly and want to talk to you, but I don't because I'm afraid."
[106] Nobody knows how close I really am to falling.
[107] "Why is all your posts so depressing?"
Because everyday:
I get up and pretend I'm okay
And that nothing is wrong.
I do this so I don't seek attention
So no one know how I really feel.
I'm too scared to say it.
So I hide behind my smile.
It's my mask.
[108] It's not my fault all my broken pieces cause me not to trust you.
[109] "You said I was the girl of your dreams but I guess you woke up."
[110] That moment when you take in a deep breath before speaking because you know you're close to crying.
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𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷
Random"Here I go again.. trap in this mess mind.. just a typical depressed girl always been through.." ○ Book filled with depression, sad, anxiety thoughts ○
