[281] She cuts herself
Never to deep, never enough to die.
But enough to feel pain, enough to feel the scream inside.
[282] "My thoughts were destroying me. I tried not to think but the silence was a killer too."
[283] I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me. And one day, there won't be any of me left.
[284] "Anxiety is when you care too much about everything. Depression is when you don't really care about anything. Having both is just like hell."
[285] I'm not strong as everyone thinks I am.
[286] "I'm not anyone's first choice. I'm not anyone's favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I'm special to them but I know there's someone they will always choose over me."
[287] Behind my smile is a hurting heart.
Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.
Look closely at me and you will see,
The girl I am, isn't me.
[288] "Have you ever wanted to ask a question but didn't because you knew in your heart that you wouldn't be able to handle the answer?"
[289] When did "I'm fine," become such an easy lie?
[290] "It's just sad that when I push people away they just go and don't even try to stay."
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𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷
Random"Here I go again.. trap in this mess mind.. just a typical depressed girl always been through.." ○ Book filled with depression, sad, anxiety thoughts ○
