[251] Her life has always been a mess,
The stories in her eyes she won't confess.
How much longer will she fake?
By the time people catch on It'll be too late..
[252] "I have the worst habit of over analyzing everything and putting myself in a bad mood."
[253] "You look sad today,"
"Hmm, I'm sad every day. I just didn't have the energy to hide it today,"
[254] At age 4: She was too young to see the world in its true light.
At age 10: Everything was amazing and her life was filled with color.
At age 13: The light seem to dim down as the world crept on to her.
At age 15: She started to only red and she was blinded by her thoughts.
At age 17: Her mind isn't in control anymore and there's no more room on her thighs.
At age 25: She looks into the mirror and smiles as she says to herself, "I made it."
[255] Going from "Today is a good day," to "I hate myself," takes me approximately 2.6 seconds.
[256] If you ever taken a blade to that beautiful body of yours, skipped a meal at least once on a purpose, cried yourself to sleep because you weren't good enough, tried any form of self-harm or thought of/attempted to take away your own life. Let's see how many of us are out there..
[257] "Open up to me, I won't judge you."
"Trust me, I won't hurt you."
"I'll never leave your side,"
"I love you,"
- The sweetest lies -
[258] I know my waist isn't small, my legs are too big, my mind is a wreck, I'm covered in scars and open wounds. I'm just sorry, I couldn't be what you wanted me to be.
[259] "I'm not living, I'm just surviving."
[260] "Please forgive me if I don't talk much at times. It's loud enough in my head."
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𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷
Random"Here I go again.. trap in this mess mind.. just a typical depressed girl always been through.." ○ Book filled with depression, sad, anxiety thoughts ○
