[261] "My feelings? Oh, don't worry about those. No one else does."
[262] I hate when people joke about cutting, suicide, or eating disorders.
The things is, you have no idea what people go through.
You can be standing right next to someone who is planning on ending their own life and you may never know it. Please stop. It really, really hurts.
[263] "Do you look at me or through me?"
[264] The difference between you and me is that when you wake up, your nightmares end.
[265] "Save me.."
"From what?"
"Myself.."
[266] Hopeless Empty Lonely Painful
[267] "How do you feel?"
"I wish I wasn't here,"
"Are you feeling suicidal?"
"Uh, maybe. I don't know,"
"Can you explain that please?"
"Well, I don't want to die, really. I'm scared. I fear death. I fear what lays on the other side. I don't want to die, I just don't want to exist. That's a difference. I have an urge sometimes to run across the road in front of a car. But without the intention of death. I think I would just prefer to slip into a coma, for a few months perhaps. Just so I can be asleep. So I am not dead, but I'm not alive. I don't have to go through the pain everyday, I don't have to wake up every morning with dry cheeks from the tears that left my eyes the night before. I just want to be asleep, away from the world. Away from the pain. All the problems. I don't want to die, I just want to cease to exist."
[267] I'm so tired of the rain falling softly on the ground, just enough to get to my feet wet, but not enough to let me drown.
[268] I hate it when people tell me to, "Just be happy,"
So you think I chose to just be depressed?
[269] "The worst crying is when you're lying in bed, with your hand over your mouth so you don't make noise. The tears are running onto your pillow and your heart's breaking and you're thinking of everything that made you cry and the other hand is on your heart or stomach because they both hurt."
[270] Depression is the worst kind of killer
It corners you at night, or when you're alone,
And slowly eats away at any shred of happiness it can found,
until there's nothing left but pain and eventually death.
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𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷
Random"Here I go again.. trap in this mess mind.. just a typical depressed girl always been through.." ○ Book filled with depression, sad, anxiety thoughts ○
