[301] Self harm is like having a loaded gun in you all the times. The only problem is that you're not in control of the trigger.
[302] I'm sorry I wasn't what you wanted.
[303] I lay in bed at night for hours thinking about every possible thing I fucked up in life.
[304] You think I'm stupid? I put on fake smiles everyday and you believed them.
[305] Dear therapist/parents/friends,
When can you just accept the fact that everyone cares what other people think. Everyone cares when people stare at them and everyone cares about the whispers. When can you open your eyes and see that I'm hurting because you are telling me that's everything's gonna be okay and nobody will talk about me. Everything you told me about that is a lie. Nothing's gonna be okay and everyone will judge. It what humans do. So you have no right to tell me that you know what it feels like to be me. ~myaddxctxon
[306] When I die, don't you dare come to my grave and tell me you love me because those words were the only thing I would have needed to stay.
[307] "Moving On" -sounds easy right?
But I died a thousand times just to appreciate this phrase.
[308] The light that once sparkled in my eyes had dimmed to nothing. The happiness that blinded my depression had faded. For now my eyes are lifeless and show no emotion.
[309] I'm not living, i'm just surviving.
[310] I wonder what it's like.
To wake up and love yourself.
To look in mirror and not want to cry.
To weight yourself, see the numbers and not want to puke.
To be with friends, and not feel ugly.
To go in public, and not be insecure.
To go shopping for clothes and not feel fat.
I wonder;
What's it like to love yourself?
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𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷
Random"Here I go again.. trap in this mess mind.. just a typical depressed girl always been through.." ○ Book filled with depression, sad, anxiety thoughts ○
