[241] I don't need a reason to kill myself, I need a reason not to.
[242] "The demons are back and stronger than ever. They are looking for a fight. Looking to win, and this time.. I might just let them."
[243] "One day.. In the middle of the class while everyone was working, my eyes filled with tears because I knew. They were thinking about their work, or friends, or what's happening after school but all I could think of was how I'd much rather be at the top of a building about to jump."
[244] Depression is like a war. You either win, or die trying.
[245] And it hurts that I can't be what everyone wants, or what everyone needs and it hurts that I can't be what I want or what I need. Because I'm not good enough, and I won't be enough, and I'll never be closed to enough.. and I'm just so damn tire.
[246] "When they stop talking to you, they start talking about you."
[247] Emotionally: I'm done.
Mentally: I'm drained.
Physically: I smile.
[248] When I first heard people cut, I thought it was strange, and I didn't know how people could put harm on themselves like that. Then I picked up a blade and get it now.
[249] "I hate that feeling you get when you're trying your hardest not to cry in front of someone, but as soon as they ask "Are you okay?", you just lose it."
[250] I'm mentally unstable.
But I hide it from everyone except myself.
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𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷
Random"Here I go again.. trap in this mess mind.. just a typical depressed girl always been through.." ○ Book filled with depression, sad, anxiety thoughts ○
