can i lay by your side|corbyn besson

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I'm sitting on my bed when I see I have a text from Daniel. He says Aaron is here and to come downstairs.

Great. I sigh and stand up from my bed. Sure, I was mad as hell when I found out but breakups are hard man.

I walk out of my room and head downstairs. Aaron is talking with the boys on the couch and I walk over to them. I'll admit, I was a bit upset that they were talking to him, but then I realized they don't know what he did. I can't find Corbyn on the couch though. Maybe he caught on and hates Aaron now too.

"Hey, Max." He smiles and gets up to hug me. I show no emotion but hug him back. I'm not sure what to do but I know I don't want him to know what I'm thinking. Well, not yet.

"Can I talk to you upstairs?" I ask with a straight face. He nods solemnly and stands to follow me. I take a deep breath as we walk upstairs. We're both silent as we reach my room. I shut the door and he sits on the foot of the bed. He looks down and breathes in as well.

"Judging by your expression and mood, I'm guessing you know." His voice is soft and shaky. I look at him and see his sad eyes. I nod and he looks down again.

"Adeline found my number and called me." I say, watching him. My face gives nothing away, as I like it to be.

"I'm so sor-"

"You don't get to be sorry. You were completely sober when it happened." I state, calmly. He looks up at me again. "And not only did you cheat on me, but you took advantage of a drunk woman."

"I know! I'm messed up!"

"You did more than mess up."

"Please, please! I'm begging, it will never happen again, I promise." He stands and tries to take my hand. "I lov-" I pull my hands away from his as I cut him off.

"No! You don't love me! You knew what you were doing! If you loved me, you never wouldn't have done something like that!" I yell at him. He closes his eyes for a second. "Why did you do it?" I say calmly. His eyes fly open.

"What?"

"Why did you sleep with her?" I say quickly. He stumbles over his words and can't get an answer out. "Is it because I wouldn't sleep with you?" He looks down and I see a tear fall down his face.

"I think you need to go." I say.

"What?"

"I really think you should leave." I whisper. Aaron looks at me for a second, studying my face.

"Remember what you said." He puts his hands on my shoulders. His voice cracks and I can sense fear. "No matter what, we can push through anything toget-"

"What the hell do I know?" I cut him off and try to push his arms off but his grip just gets tighter.

"Please, just hear me out. P-Please. I-I can't live without you. I can't imagine a life without you." Aaron stutters as tears fall down his cheeks. He grabs my arm and pulls his hands down from my shoulder to my wrist. "With-without these arms." He sniffs. I look down to him. "These hands." He holds my hands in his then puts one over my chest. Not my breasts though. "Without your heart. Your strong, kind heart." I look into his glossy eyes and see tear stains. He slides his hands to my sides and kneels in front of me. Aaron wraps his arms around my waist and I let the first tear fall. "I need you more than life itself. You're my air. Y-You're my life-source! Please." His voice is staggered as he sobs.

"Aaron, what you did-"

"I know. I'm sorry. I'll do whatever it takes. I just need you. I'll do anything."

"I wish I could forgive you but-" I pause and wipe my eye. "But every time I get close, I just- keep picturing you with her." I cover my eyes.

"It was a stupid mistake and I wouldn't ever do it again for the world." He says, rasp in his voice.

I shake my head. "Aaron, I think you should go. I can't do this anymore." I put my hands on his arms and he unravels himself from me. Aaron stays kneeling before me.

For once, I tower over him.

For once, he is vulnerable to me, at my disposal. He is giving himself to me and I can't stand to see him like this.

My tears blur my vision but I quickly wipe them away like the rest.

"I used to think of you as the one person who would never hurt me." I look down into is eyes.

Those beautiful blue eyes.

Those beautiful blue eyes that are no longer full of life, but agony. It kills me to do this.

He says nothing and simply looks up at me.

"I can't even look at you." I say quietly and close my eyes. I open them and he stand up quickly.

"I'll do anything. ANYTHING. I just need you to trust me again."

I shake my head and wipe my eyes again. "To let me kiss these lips again." He whispers and leans closer to me.

I want him so bad. I want to tell him everything will be alright and let him again. But I just can't forgive him.

"No!" I push him away. I need to yell, be angry. Otherwise, I'll fall for this and be dumb enough to forgive him. "You can't just kiss me and expect all of this to go away! That's not how it works!" He looks away and his tears have dried.

"Does our relationship mean nothing to you! It was a mistake! I didn't mean anything and I thought you would understand!" I'm taken aback when he yells but I gain my confidence again.

"Does our relationship mean nothing to you? You fucking slept with another girl! And why are you yelling at me? I did nothing wrong!" I shout back.

"I made a fucking mistake and you're acting like a baby!" My eyes grow wide.

"You're calling me a baby for not wanting to be lied to!? Are you seriously that dumb?!" I yell. His sweet persona has vanished and I realize I was right to not forgive him.

"I've said I'm sorry! What more do you want?" He yells. I stare into his eyes for a second as I calm down.

"I need you to leave." I state, sternly.

"No, we need to talk this out." He says and I see the anger in his eyes.

"Fine. Then I'm leaving." I say and turn away from him.

"To hell you are." I feel his grip on my wrist and he pulls me back harshly.

"Let go of me." I say, looking to my wrist.

I then feel a sting on the side of my face.

My head turns to the side and a feel the grip on my arm fall.

"Max-" I look to him with fire in my eyes.

I turn around quickly and throw the door open, racing down the staircase. All the while, I hear Aaron running behind me.

"Max, please!" I pass the living room that was filled with the boys. I ignore them completely and walk to the front door. "Listen to me! I'm sorry!" Aaron follows me quickly and I know we attract the attention of all five boys.

"Get out." I say softly, opening the door for him. "I've asked multiple times, now I'm telling you. Get out of our fucking house, asshole." I lock eyes and he looks scared. He lowers his head and walks out the door. I slam it behind him and immediately run back upstairs to my room.

Jack's pov

I look to the others and see them with wide eyes. Max is never this mad and we were all thinking it. Aaron must have really messed up.

I instantly get up from my spot and follow her upstairs. When I open the door to our room, she's putting stuff into a backpack.

"Max?" I ask softly. She keeps her head down and continues packing. "Max, what happened?" She walks out of the room and I follow her into the bathroom while she grabs things from the cabinets. She walks back into our room and stuffs more into the bag. "What are you doing?" She zips up the bag and walks back out of the room.

She flies down the stairs, still not answering me.

"I'm leaving for a few nights. I'll be back soon." She says after she puts her Vans on. Why is she leaving? I love Max but she confuses me sometimes.

Before anyone can say anything, she slams the door behind her, leaving us in silence.