Ever since I was younger, I was so afraid of being in a relationship
Every single relationship in my family has turned horrible
Whether it was one person using the other, threatening their life, calling the police saying one tried to kill the other, and so much more
I didn't want that
I never thought about myself having a relationship
Almost ten years later, I'm still so fucking scared.
What if that happens to me??
I don't want that to happen to me
Every time I might have a relationship with a guy, I push myself away knowing that something bad might happen
I don't want to do that, but sometimes I feel like I have to
And I hate that
Like what if something is there between me and a guy
I would never know cause I push them away, fucking scared to death that something bad might happen
Maybe someday I won't do that
Someday
