The Ghost Advice Horse Journal

Letter to my friends. (Caution: This may cause the comments section to go nuts)

*sigh*

Don't take it seriously, but can I go kill myself right now?

If it wasn't for my stupid parents I would be able to hang out with my real friends. The ones that are there for me. And they all gathered for a party last night.

Without me.

I know it sounds selfish but I haven't see them in two months. I'm lonely and tired of being yelled at. 'Cause you know.

We all need somebody...to lean on.

*wipes tears away*

Hailey, you taught me things that no one else has ever taught me. About friendship, about grades, about having the best birthday ever. And happy birthday.

Taylor, you brought out the crazy in me, making me a better and friendlier person. I know your going through a difficult process too. Just know that I'll be praying for you.

Sydney, I was never really your 'best friend', but when we hung out, you were the cheeriest person there. You were also able to stand up for what was right. I know I could never do that.

Meleah, I'm jealous of you. Your beautiful looks, your smarts, your clothes. And I know I'll never get anywhere, so I want you to take those things and make the world a better place.

I think her name was Julia. Julia, I never grew to be friends with you, but you treated all my friends with care and compassion. Continue to do that for the whole world.

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And I know you guys either don't have a Wattpad, or don't read this book, but please. Tay, if you get this, will you please show them? It would mean a lot.

Moving is hard. It's a painful, lonely process that will only get worse. I may seem like a happy person on the outside, but on the inside, I'm dying.

And I don't want you guys to go through that stuff.

Because I love you guys. I can't bear to loose another friend again.