The Ghost Advice Horse Journal

I really just...

I really just can't...

They expect me to speak fluent Spanish when all I know is dang English. I've new even been to Mexico before. I have Spanish homework that I forgot in my locker, English homework that I forgot in my locker, and I'm failing in all my subjects and my parents think they can fix that by taking me out of school again and I'm sick and tired of them calling me a brat and calling me useless and saying things to me that a person should never be called in their life. Everything about my family is horrid. I bet they wouldn't even care if I died, or if I ran away, or if my little sister died. All they do is nag about how I'm a dumb sh*t and I can't do anything for this world. I try my hardest, but all I get is negative feedback and there's no one to lean on in this stupid f*cking world.

I try to live on, but I really don't want to. You guys are the people I turn to for love and affection. You're my true friends, not the ones that use me and play with me until I'm old and not interesting anymore. And I really love you guys for that. I really do. I want to talk to you in real life and not be stuck in this apartment all by myself with no one to protect me from my parents and sister. Maybe I liked being an only child and having to suffer through the death of my little brother that no one gave a sh*t about except for me.

I just...I love you guys. And I really want to be there with you every step of the way.