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Ch10 ...................... V

This morning, I'm stirring the tea bag in my cup, with my head in the clouds, a smile screwed onto my lips ... The water's probably cold by now.

It's been a week now, that I've been walking on air. I've already told Lisa about our engagement and I gave her a detailed account of our stay in Paris.

Even if there's time to organise the wedding, I'm already looking at wedding dresses, thinking of the ceremony, my future with Ryan ...

He asked me to move in with him in an apartment that he wants us to choose together.

(I'm so happy.)

I'm simply over the the moon! He's right, why wait? I of all people ought to know that life can stop like that, overnight!

With Ryan, I know that I'll live a life full of passion and adventure! I know I'll never get bored! But I also I know that there'll be many rivers to cross.

I'm not gonna kid myself I know the man I'm engaged to. I've accepted the rules of the game.

But I take him as he is.

Suddenly, a kind of sickly aftertaste comes up from my stomach ! I try to restrain it at first  but then my whole stomach chruns!

I rush to the kitchen sink to vomit but only saliva comes out ...

I remain doubled up in pain hovering over the trickle of cold water, waiting for this unpleasant feeling to go as suddenly as it came!

After a few minutes, I feel a little better.

Phew! What was that ?!

Probably a virus.

I make my way back to the sofa with difficulty. My head is spinning, my legs are weak.

I lay down for a moment to come to. I put a hand on my forehead. It's not even hot.

When I feel a little better, I go back to the kitchen to get some sugared water. It's probably just a fainting spell ...

Quickly the same sensation comes back over me, but this time it's more like spasms!

T:"Oh shit!!"

I rush over to the sink again and vomit the water I just swallowed!

Staggering, I make my way back to the sofa, to lie down. I don't understand because I felt really good just a few minutes ago.

I grab my phone and send a message to Ryan to take the morning off.

Suddenly, I get this dreadful doubt.

Vertigo, vomiting ...? My brain starts to think like crazy.

When was my last period?

I calculate my cycle on the fingers of my hand ... And I realise that, if my calculations are correct, I'm a week late.

Add to that, the fact that, since last night, my breasts have been quite painful like when I'm about to have my period, except that this morning there's nothing ...

T:"Oh no! It can't be true!"

My heart starts to knock hard in my chest! Adrenaline gives me the strength to rush to the bathroom!

I look through the bathroom cabinet! I have an old test somewhere that I'd bought one time when I was in doubt.

I'd kept it just in case! I have to get my hands on it now, and fast because if I'm pregnant, I have no idea how I'm going to handle it!!