Luna

Chapter 11

Previously on Luna:

"So tell me, why did you reschedule this session?"

I played with my fingers and I could see her observing. She always observed my actions. "I needed to get something's off my chest sooner and you said I should tell you when I wanted to"

She nodded her head and waited till I lied down on the couch. I always felt it easier to express myself this way......................

"It happened yesterday. Remember that neighbor that I talked about? His name is Jay. Well I was on the balcony taking pictures when I accidentally turned around and he was there just staring at me. Then he had the audacity to ask for a picture" I huffed

"Now why is that frustrating for you?"

I remained silent for a while all the thoughts churned in my mind. That was a good question. Why did it frustrate me? "Well you don't just ask someone you barely know to take your picture."

"Tourists ask others to take their pictures?"

"He wasn't a tourist" Duh. I wonder why Dr. Forbes is so dumb at times.

"You haven't talked about taking pictures for a while. What made you do it again?"

"I don't know. I really didn't give it much thought this time" I turned my head towards her. "Mia and Emma bought me a camera for my birthday and I took some pictures that day. It reminded me how good it felt taking pictures, capturing the moments, seeing others happy.................... I guess I wanted to feel it all again"

"So what type of pictures did you start taking this time?"

"I took them. Mia and Emma." She kept nodding as I kept talking. "Then it's mostly the scenery. I haven't gone out of the house since our session last week. oh I took a picture of a few kids who were walking down the street."

"Good. Now let's talk about why you have been staying at home all day long". Oops I may have opened my mouth too much. She was good at catching such trivial things.

"I want to stay inside. It is warm and cozy and easier" I trailed off.

"We talked about this Luna" I can see a bit of concern on her face even though she did a good job of hiding it. I had been coming to her for a while maybe that's why she is so concerned. Otherwise why would someone care about me?

"About what doc?" I asked back with an innocent look in my eyes.

"You need to try doing some other activities. Little by little. It will be good for you to get out of the house and get some fresh air."

"I did go out" I felt myself getting frustrated. This was not good. If I reached my boiling point, I am probably going to be bawling my eyes out soon. "I went to the cinema. Look how it turned out. I went to the exhibition and sprained my ankle. I went to my supposed to be freaking birthday party and my parents threw the papers right in my face. All they wanted was my fucking signature. I don't matter to anybody. I am just a pawn to my family." I buried my face in my hands. "I only have two people I can call friends. I haven't had a boyfriend I am 25 for crying out loud." I felt tears trickle down my cheeks. I could feel her eyes on me. The silence between us urging me to continue. To say everything out loud that I had been wanting to, but we both knew this was just the beginning.

I sat up before continuing. I kept my eyes fixed on the floor. "I couldn't take Jay's picture because it was a him. He was a man....... It reminded me of back then when I was k-kidnapped..... Did I ever tell you this? He gave me a camera one day. Of course he knew I liked taking pictures. He posed and told me to take his pictures and when I refused he- .... he ....." I looked up towards Dr. Forbes begging her to help me. She could see the desperation in my eyes but also the fear.