Adopted by 1D [Completed]

Part 40 - "I'm in love with her"

At a small park in London’s not-really-known side, Zayn is sitting on a swing, looking like a man who lost his hope and wished that he died right at that time. He’s feeling exhausted and tired. His weak and pale face wouldn’t get noticed by people around that he’s Zayn Malik. He’s looking down hopelessly under the stormy rain.

[Let’s go to Zayn’s POV!]

I don’t know what to do now. I really have no idea what’s going in my head. All that I’m still thinking is only about how I can find Elena. I can’t go back home without bringing her. She’s the reason why I ran out. She’s the reason why I’m here. And I know, I’m the reason why she’s gone. So this is my fault.

Maybe I never tell this to anyone but the lads. Elena really reminds me of Annisa. The world wide tour last year, brought One Direction travelling all around the world. We’ve been travelling around Europe, Australia, Africa, and Asia. I met Annisa in Indonesia, one of the biggest countries in Asia. While we were having a concert there, the lads and I decided to go around the town. Then we met Annisa and her friend, Kath, on the street, that turned out they were our fans. That incident brought us to Kath’s house and we were having a movie.

From the first time that I saw Annisa, there was this different feeling. The feeling like I just met someone special. I really hated to eventually separate with her because the tour had to go on. We left to Australia without even saying goodbye. It was just too early to have a relationship, said the management. I totally regretted that.

I never forget the way Annisa smiles at me at that time. Even though it feels like years ago. She was a carefree, cheerful and kind person. I always loved the way she laughed. She really looks a lot like Elena. That was why I was being ignorant to Elena at the first day we met. I just didn’t want to see her face because she does really look like Annisa, the girl that I was missing.

The way she smiles, the way she laughs, the way she looks at me, just the same as Annisa ever did to me. It made my heart broken again actually. But then, day by day, Elena could make me think differently. I missed Annisa, but this is Elena. I don’t want to lose someone that I love for the second time. I promised to myself. I couldn’t break it at this time. Not now.

It’s very cold here. I should’ve searched for a shelter but I really don’t care about my condition. I just hurt someone’s heart. I don’t want to live with full of regrets. I could’ve died right now. I don’t want to go home till I find Elena.

Suddenly her very sweet smile comes to my head. That cheerful, kind, sweet little heart that she has. She thoroughly doesn’t deserve this. Someone needs to keep a smile on her face. Even if I’m a wicked person, I’d wish that she stayed away from people like me.

I look at the necklace that I put around my wrist as a bracelet. Everyone knows that I’m the reason why Elena ran away. Nobody would forgive me for that if I came back.

Suddenly I hear someone’s shouting at my way.

“Hey!”

The voice sounds like a girl. Maybe it’s a girl. I can hear her footsteps on the green grass coming at me.

“I’m sorry but what are you doing in a stormy rain like this?”

I’m too weak to look up to see who’s this girl talking to me like she cares about me. I just give her a brief weak look.

“Why do you care about me?” I said weakly, look away of her glares.

“I didn’t really mean to stalk you but I just got out of my grocery store to delivery some flowers, then I saw you sitting here. At first I thought that you were just chilling. Then I got back which took me 4 hours and you’re still here.” She explained, a bit yelling because she has to fight the rain sound. “You’ve been rained for almost an hour.”