Adopted by 1D [Completed]

Part 51 - Stories For Zayn

[Let's go to Elena's POV!] 

The situation is really on silence. It's only filled with the sound of a heart monitor that's showing Zayn's weak heart beat. I look down then suddenly a bracelet that Zayn's wearing just catches my eyes. I'm very surprised that it's even my necklace. Suddenly the moment when I threw this necklace comes to my mind. It makes me cry because I just realized that I was wrong about this guy. My eyes now start to wet. 

He never lied about the promise. 

"I've been so hard to understand. I guess especially for you. I've been so rude, mean, wicked to you, I know that really well. I want you to keep the necklace so you can always remember that I'm not going to be like that to you anymore. I promise to myself." 

Those words are spelled slowly but sure inside of my head. I sniff and wipe the tears on my cheek immediately. I then decide to take the necklace off of Zayn's left hand and wear it again. I remember the first time he really wanted me to wear this necklace so bad. I don't want to think about it that far. It hurts me a lot. 

After that, I hold Zayn's left hand, and decide to pray while closing my eyes peacefully. 

"God, the one that I love is lying weakly here. He's suffering because of me, while he's never been done anything bad to me." 

My voice is hushed, as I can't hold the tears anymore. 

"I've been thinking badly to him, I was wrong about him, and you can punish me for that." 

"Don't-..." I cry, bowing my head down in regret. "Please don't take him." 

"Punish me, for letting him dying here." 

"Punish me, for letting him suffering these days." 

"And punish me, because... I love him." 

Suddenly I feel the grip on my hand. I'm surprised as I notice it's Zayn's hand holding my hand back. He holds my hand tighter, that makes me look at the heart monitor. Slowly it's showing that Zayn's condition has been improving. 

A relief smile then appears on my sad face, I then turn to Zayn's face, waiting for his reaction next.  

"Zayn, I'm here." I whisper, gripping Zayn's hand tighter. 

I hold his hand with both of my hands. I rise up his hand to the front of my chin and kiss his hand with full of hopes and loves from the bottom of my heart. 

The beep sound from the heart monitor is showing the slow heart beat again. Zayn still doesn't want to open his eyes. It makes my heart gets a little attack. 

"Zayn, I'm so sorry." I cry, closing my eyes in guilty. "All that I did to you, I regret it all, I swear." 

I can't hold my sadness. I cry my heart out as deep as I can. The moments when the first time I talked to him, he didn't sleep just to accompany me at night, the most care one, his smiles that he gave to me, the laughs that we had, it all comes to my head one by one. He never hurted you, Elena, he didn't! 

I sniff, and cry silently while my eyes can't stop shedding tears. God, please make him strong. I'll stay away from him if that's what I have to do. 

I take a deep breath, right after I put Zayn's hand back. It's no use. It's all my fault and I feel like I just want to die because Zayn doesn't even want to forgive me. I take off my necklace again and put it inside of Zayn's hand. I close his hand tightly, to make him feel the necklace is in his hand again. 

I'm such a mess. It feels so heavy actually to turn around and go out to tell his mother that I'm not helping at all, knowing that what I've done is so overrated. I'm going to get all the hates from the whole world and I have to be so much stronger than this.