Colby Brocks Housekeeper

Chapter #27

That night I couldnt go to sleep. I couldnt stop crying. The boys and my mom tried to stay awake with me but they were exhausted and I understood. I made them go to bed, told them I would be fine. Even though they didnt believe me they knew it was best for me to be alone for awhile and they needed sleep. So the rest of the night was spent silently crying. I held the sobs in but the tears still came out. I couldnt believe he would do something like this. Colby never seemed like the person to cheat or do anything like that to a person. People were tweeting, texting, and DMing me. They were trying to see if I was okay. They wanted me to talk to them. They wanted me to know how sorry they are. Then I got one text that made everything stop.

Elton: Hey, hon.

Elton: Listen, I know that people are probably spamming you right now. Saying how sorry they are and that youre in their prayers. How everything is going to be okay and to just keep your head high. Trust me I have gone through that before and none of that helped. Im here to let you know that you dont have to be strong right now. You dont have to put on a brave face. It hurts and you should go through these emotions. Cry, be angry, punch something, get through these emotions. Trust me when I say that we are all pissed off at Colby. Im so sorry, Nancy. I truly am. We miss you here and wish that we could help you through this. We love you and wish you the best. You can always come back here. Dont ever forget that this is your home just as much as ours. Love ya, kiddo, and I miss you more than words can say.

I was crying even more now. I miss Elton and the boys so much. They are apart of my home. I miss walking into the house and being greeted with the boys yelling. I miss going there and the house being a mess because of the prank war. I miss everything about them. I cant go back though. Not yet at least. I have to stay for awhile more. I love Colby, I do, but I cant stay with him. Sure it may have just been a kiss but if I let him get away with this it shows that I forgive easily and i cant do that. I was tired. Really tired. I responded to Elton before I passed out.

Me: Where ever you guys are, is my home. I love you, dad.

I was getting a lot of hate, which I deserve. People were saying how horrible I am, which I deserve. People were saying that Nancy deserve better, which is true. Its so true. I dont know why she agreed to date me at all. She deserves so much better than me. Better than anything I did. I got out of my bed and went over to my desk. I set up my camera.

"Hey guys. Listen, I know Im a horrible person for what I did to Na- ah for what I did at that party. It was horrible. Im here to say what happened and more to come at the end. So the day of the party I was hurting because as you all know Nancy has been in Ireland for almost two months now. I miss her so much. I hadnt been out of the house in weeks so the boys convinced me to go to this party with them, and I did. When I was at the party I was drinking. I had one to many and was drunk. I was asked to do a bit for a persons vlog, someone I wont say the name of, and it was that I went up to a girl, asked for her phone number, her reject me and me be embarrassed and say that I have a girlfriend anyway. I said no cause I didnt want people to actually think I was asking for a girls number while I was dating Nancy. The person told me they would put a thing that said that was just a bit at the end and that I actually love my girlfriend a lot. I agreed cause I didnt think much of it. I went to a girl, asked for her number and she kissed me. I went to pull away but for some reason I c-couldnt." I started to choke up.

"Ahem. Anyway, I couldnt for some reason. I stayed there and all of a sudden I realized i was kissing back. I pulled away and was shocked I did that. I looked around the crowd and everyone looked shocked and disappointed. I was disappointed in myself , too. I couldnt believe I had done that. I ran out of the house crying. Yeah thats my side of the story. Let me make this clear, in no way am I trying to get pity or sympathy here. I dont deserve it. I dont deserve to be forgiven. I was just laying in my bed and thinking about something." I looked straight into the camera.

"Nancy, if you are watching this, I am so so sorry. I dont deserve you. You should have a relationship with someone that is so much better than the one with me. You are amazing, sweet, beautiful, and all around the kindest person I have ever met. Nancy, Im sorry for putting you through this. Im so sorry for being so god damn selfish. I should have thought of us. I should have thought of you and I didnt. Im such an asshole and you deserve better. I love you with all my heart, Nancy Rose Archer. You dont have to forgive me. Hell, I wouldnt forgive me. I hope you find a man that treats you like a queen. Thank you so much for one of the best year of my life. I'll miss you. Goodbye." I finished the video with tears streaming down my face. I didnt even edit anything I just put the video up. I went and laid back in my bed. My phone started to blow up within thirty minutes. I didnt check it. I just fell asleep.

I woke up to the sound of my brothers fighting outside in the living room.

"Vick, he cheated on her! He doesn't deserve any sympathy! I dont care about that fucking video!" Jason yelled.

"Jason, dont you see that he is in love with her? Yeah he did something horrible but dont we all!?" Vick yelled.

"Im not talking about this anymore, Vick. Im not letting her go anywhere. Not for awhile." Jason said calmer. I heard a door open and shut. Then a loud sigh came out from Vick. I heard him walk back to his room and shut his door. I was confused on what video Jason was talking about. I looked at my phone and saw a new video from Colby. The title being 'You deserve so so much better'. I watched the video. It hurt. I started to cry again. I looked at the comments. Most saying that he was right about me deserving better. then there were some saying stuff like 'you can see his heart break in his eyes' and 'he loves her so much'. They were right. You could see him break and you could tell that he loved me. I decided to respond. I got my camera and set it up.

"Hi everyone. Sorry if I look like a mess, usually ill get ready before I shoot a video, this time I just couldnt. This video is indeed responding to Colby. This is going to be directed to Colby so you can click off if you dont want to see this. Colby, I dont know what you mean when you say I deserve better. Cause honestly you are the best that anyone could get. It has been the best year of my life too. You and the boys have made my life feel more complete. You are not a horrible person. You made a mistake as well all do sometimes. I do believe you. I always believe you. You werent selfish. Honestly if anyone was selfish it was me. I was the one who left to Ireland for about two months. I didnt think of you, all I could think of was myself and my brothers. I'm sorry, Colby. I do forgive you. I will always forgive you, but I think it would be best for us to take a break for a little while. It may not be permanent. I honestly would love to be with you again in the future but if either of us find someone else then we should be respectful of that. I love you, Colby Brock. Stay in touch with me, okay? I promise one day I will return home to you." I sadly smiled to the camera and stopped it. I uploaded the video with no editing and went back to bed.
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Sorry to make your heart hurt. Hope you enjoyed. Peace out.