"Meant for me"

"Now is the time"

Hours had passed ,my party was officially starting, making my way down the long corridor nervousness set in so quiet except for the loud pounding of my own heart beat" walking slowly because I didn't want to rush to get there no need to hurry I thought what do I care! They could wait all night for my entrance" savages wouldn't even know I was present,it would be just another party for them, Savages! I stopped & took a minute to gather myself looking around at all the grand paintings from the past and to the present, beautiful they we're " soon I shall be painted, and I myself will be hanging on that wall with the rest, relative's I've never seen before,some I have year's ago but hadn't never seen again" I wondered what they thought, some of them looked unhappy & other's just didn't have an expression at all, Mmmhhh well maybe I wouldn't be so happy either if I had to stand or sit for hour's while someone painted me" I'm sure I'd find out soon enough" at this moment I wanted to runaway and not look back ,this had been my own personal hell , I love my mother dearly and maybe she was right ,maybe I needed the stability & someone who could give me what I needed" was my dress too tight and cutting the circulation off of my brain? Clearly I wasn't thinking straight" nothing was quite rational at this point" Maybe it was? I guess everything will make some kind of since once things fall in place,my mother all in all was a wise woman'. Finally reaching the end of the corridor, making my way down the stairs I started getting more nervous than I had been earlier, farther and farther I had gotten to the bottom of the stairs into the ballroom, my mother was at the bottom waiting for me , everyone stairing at me with looks of invy,all along I was thinking that this is it my life and soon I'd be taking orders from a husband whom I did not love and maybe having children,I could see my future flash before my eyes dreadful that's what it would be just dreadful"
Put on a smile and be nice ,I can do this "
I took a deep breath ,there my beautiful mother stood a smile on her face ,I was thinking that she probably wondered if I'd be here and not locked away in my bed chamber sulking like a child" but I'm here,my eyes took in every one around me ' I began to focus on the beautiful colors blacks the gold's & red's ' I was amazed by them all fitting perfectly together ,the Candle Abra's,all the color's matched my dress to a T" flowing from the floor into the patterns so detailed , I was impressed,'So my child my mother took my hand and asked me how I felt about everything with her soft spoken voice"I absolutely love it mother so detailed I honestly cannot believe it... It's almost enchanting and everyone else looked incredible despite why they we're here. I didn't want her to hear my enthusiasm she might be wishful thinking"alright Ruby my dear just remember to be very polite I know this isn't what you wanted but I love you...Mother I'm sorry to interrupt but I shall be on my best behavior if I happen to not be able to contain myself I shall step away you have my word" I trust you my dear she said " OH and mother..Thank you very much "
I smiled at her ,she let go of my hand smiling back at me with the hopes that I'd fine true love for myself and happiness like her and my father's.