"Meant for me"

"Mother knows best"

Wake up now you spoiled child ,wake up! Waking to the angry voice of my mother ,her tone didn't set too good with me ,Mother why are you yelling at me like that,what have I done to make you angry? Child as if you don't know! Get up now! But...Do not talk back to me , I've had enough of your running around, leaving without telling anyone where you are or what your doing! What is the matter with you RUBY! All I could do was stare at her ,and not say a damn word , it's none of your business I'm of age and I can do as I please!!   No you may certainly not child!!! And who do you think you are speaking to me like this?

Come take a walk with me child," mother where are we going? I'd had asked ,to the garden my dear' we need to talk ,but we can talk here? Just come with me... Hesitant ,what was she doing? Why? I didn't understand,what could she possibly want to talk about?

               Mother please what is so important that we had to come out here to the garden?  She gave me that certain stare 'of I've got something to tell you' I wasn't ready for what she had to say,it couldn't be good at all' Ruby I brought you out here for a bit of extra privacy,for what please tell me! Ruby you know that you are a very vibrant  young lady amongst other things,but you have certain duties you have to fulfill with certain society's," yes mother I'm very aware ! I felt my face heating up from anger ... Mother ,I am not a puppet for anyone,I am my own person ' I shall not be held down by those savage's! I hate them all ! I don't care how they see or feel about me for that matter ! I'm going to be whom ever I want to be, can't you see that? Would you really want to see me in an unhappy marriage? Or be with someone that I'm in love with? It's just not fair ,this isn't right " here came the flow of warm tears again' I was so sick of crying,my heart could not bare anymore sadness".     Ruby my darling this is for the best , marrying a good suiter will reassure​ your place in society,this is how it's always been and you know this to be true , she did tell the truth but I just couldn't do it ,it wasn't right I could feel it ' I belonged to someone else and he belongs to me " had I been wishful thinking? But something in my soul told me otherwise' she looked at me in disbelief ,mother knew that I hadn't planned on marrying someone I didn't love , not possible at all ,this is not my life , I'm different from them ' and that was that, I'd do anything to stop this from happening' but I'd have to have a plan.                                                      

Are you even listening to what I'm telling you Ruby! My child get your head out of the clouds,you know very well what I'm saying is true' if this man whom ever is loves you at all he'd be here for you at this very moment,mother his name is Killian! and I.. I..,I almost couldn't tell her but I needed to, I'm in love with him ,it hurts so bad I can't stop thinking about him it's driving me mad! She had looked at me with complete confusion asking how I could be in love with someone I hardly knew? I couldn't quite explain it to her but I had been so drawn to him ,mother I try so hard to not think or anything about Killian but I cannot! I'm hurting so much inside ,my soul hurts to the point where I want to scream at the top of my lungs"          
                    
               Dear please get ahold of  yourself,he is just a man ,! No mother he is not just any other man he is my life ,she had given me a dreadful look as if she knew what had happened but she dared to not say a word ,it was my life and I wanted to live it the way I'm meant to ,and it was with him I felt it even more when we we're together,so strong the intensity of it all wrapping around me ,a perfect fit we are, heading back inside we we're quiet ,she had hugged me ever so tight like she knew she was going to lose me someday ,mother I love you with all my heart , sadness crept on her beautiful face ,but I love him and if I never see him again it will surely kill me ,I need him so please let me be happy" this is how I feel and it's not ever going away ' darling she said I cannot stop your feeling's but please my child I beg of you to not let your heart stray too far,for yes it will surely lead you into something you possibly cannot get out of ,and she just hugged me again and walked away towards the stairs in such dissapointment,I hurt her and that hurt me terribly ' all I could do was try to make it right ,but I needed to live my own life.