Nodoka and The Inevitable | ohshc

04 | kyouya

He didn't get much sleep last night. Yet again, when did he ever?

Despite being in bed and being comfortable in his own skin, he was never comfortable in his own home. In fact, there were times where he wondered if his house should even be called "home".

Because as far as he can see things, none of the things or people that made up their household could even surpass as a "home".

He feels suffocated, trapped, caged.

And it was never a good feeling for anyone.

Not even for the Shadow King himself, Kyouya Ootori.

As his eyes skim across the room, he can't help but wonder if any of their guests feels the same way.

Are they just as pressured as him?

Are they trying their best to please their fathers?

Would any one of them ever feel the way he feels?

Or is it just him alone who's struggling with the standards his father has set?

But Kyouya knows, somewhere deep inside of him, someone is suffering the same fate as him. It's just that, were others feeling much worse than him? Or they're taking things slow and not too messed up at all?

It would've been better if he had someone to talk to. Someone he could relate to. Although, he highly doubts that it would happen.

On retrospect, he had quite an - almost - encounter with a little someone; Nodoka Kitagawa.

Was she feeling pressured too?

Was she feeling suffocated in her own home?

Was she just like him?

With the way she acts around everyone, he assumes that maybe, just maybe, Nodoka felt the same way. And she writes all the pain away.

But he? What does he do?

He's trying to make up for it.

He has a something as well; the Host Club.

Mori, the loyal and protective cousin; Honey, the little guy who has a huge fetish for sweets and cute stuff; Hikaru and Kaoru, the mischievious pair; Haruhi, the blunt girl who needs to be a bit more feminine; and Tamaki, his egotistical idiot of a best friend. 

He has them and he may never admit it out loud but he's very thankful for filling that empty space in him that made him feel somewhere near complete. 

And Nodoka Kitagawa ... what did she have?

But most of all, would she reply to his words?

hey guys i'll be super busy this month. like, i have dance practices bc i'll be performing in a fricking mall then i have a writing contest outside of school on my birthday lol and projects and examinations. basically. i'll try to update tho.

and i'm not very good with portraying kyouya. hell, this was short too

oH AND thank you so much for your kind words for the past few chapters of wc! it is much appreciated! i really love it when i get to hear your opinions! it makes me feel like i'm making friends too! hope i don't sound too desperate but, i'd like to hear more as wc goes on! :>