Its My Turn to Cry

Chapter 8: The Past

JENNY:

I lock myself on my room the whole afternoon thinking about what happend this morning.

Sehun knew all about our past? He even remember me?

I never expect he would deny me in front of our parents back then at our first meeting. Yeah, its my fault. But I didn't mean it since I lost my memory that time. I said I'd go back and do the promises  we made that day, the day whom we cross different ways.

I was 7 years old when my mom and I go back to Philippines to live with my father. I studied their and took business and fashion related courses which I dreamed of since I was a little kid.

I graduated and manage our company along with my dad. We own one of the successful clothing line company there and I do love that work since its one of my passion.

Back then in my teenage years I became his bestfriend even though the distance was a hindrance for both of us. I call him everytime I get some good or bad news, whether it would be school or mom and dads non-stop nagging. He became special to me and I can say though we were so young, I feel love with it and I do believe on it.

We've been contented with that long distance kiddie love affair and happy that we have each other at all times. But the days we used to call and chat each other stopped the moment I involve into a car accident.

I was on my way to school that time when me and my driver suddenly got hit by a ten wheeler truck and crushed us both to the sidewalk. Luckily, I was sitting at the back seat but my head got hit badly causing it to crack a bit and almost bring me to death. I was in comma for half a year and my mom and dad were already hopeless about my survival.

Auncle Sam, my favorite driver didn't survive that accident and I was so damn hurt everytime I remember him. If only I decided not to go to school that time.

I was in my middle high school, merely at the age of fifteen that time. I suffer from temporary amnesia which holds for about 8 years. The damage it causes seriously affected my memory which tends to let me forget all the things around me even my own identity. I undergone many surgeries and therapies just to get back all my memories especially from my past who became a special memory of all.

As I get older, some parts of my memory slowly haunts me and almost breaks my head with its unbearable pain. I suffered from it most of the time till I reach 23 and finally, I gather up every detail and clearly remember it all. He was the first who came into my mind the moment I recover all of my memories. I remember our childhood days and our promises. The things we get used to do and the happy days we spend with each other most of the time.

After a year mom and dad decided to send me back in Korea to prepare for my future. I never knew this marriage was the reason why they tend to push me to go back here.

I don't know if I will agree with it or quit. I do love him, though we treated each other as bestfriends I don't consider that either since he's special to me, more special than friend.

I know I hurt him a lot, and I can't blame him for that, and I do hope he'll forgive me and be the Sehun I love before.

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"Jenny-ah~ it's me, grandma. Can I come in?"

I push myself out of the bed and headed towards the door. I grab the knob and her smile greets me which I really missed though she often visits me here since I got back from Philippines.

"Are you okay little girl?" she ask as she notice that I am just gaping at her.

"Yes grandma. Come in." I said then let her enter my room.

We settle ourselves on my bed. Silence envelope us for a while as I notice she's being uneasy like she has something to tell or maybe something worrying about. She heave and sigh before she finally take the courage to spill it out.

"Jenny-ah~ are you sure you're okay with the wedding?" she ask. Well, my instinct hit it right. It's about the wedding again.

I know she will be worried about me and I too didn't know what to do since it's for my family's sake and the promise they hold for 3 generations.

"I know it won't be easy to decide for my own happiness grandma. I know if I chose to marry him I can't really be sure that I won't regret it in the end, but it's for the family. I know you treasured that for years and I don't want you to get mad at me." I stated.

She reach for my cheek and gently graced her thumb on it. She smiled assuringly which I know that whatever happens she'll support me in this kind of decisions.

"I'm so sorry for that. I know you don't like this kind of set up."

"No grandma. I love him, I do really love him since then..but...he hates me." I said and look down as I utter those words which is true since that's what Sehun is right now.

"I know that." she sighed heavily. I abruptly raise my head at that.

"How did you know grandma?" I ask. I didn't know she was aware of Sehun's attitude towards me.

"I too was really mad when your mother hide the truth that you lost your memory. We all think that you already forget us. We were so sad about that since you tend to contact us everyday. Sehun was really hurt about it. But I don't know what's the real reason why he hated you for so long." she said and eye me as if asking if I do know the reason.

"Me either grandma. I don't know why? I mean, I didn't mean it seriously since I lost my memory. I struggle to recover my memories of him and I do now. But I think he didn't mind it, he still hates me." I said hopelessly. Grandma patted my cheek and smiled.

"No matter what happens I and your grandma Soo Hee will take care of that. Okay?" she said then I nod as a response.

"What if I quit grandma? Would that be okay?" I ask so sudden which surprises her. She drop her head and sighed. I know she's against it but knowing my grandma, she would prioritize my happiness rather than her own.

"Just do what your heart wants and grandma will do the rest." she said then pull me into a hug.

What should I do? Should I quit? Should I marry him?

I sighed heavily and shut my eyes letting this lone tear escape freely.

"I've decided grandma. I do what I think is right and I hope you'll help me with that." I said as we both parted. She held my hand and give it a light squeeze.

"That's my princess." she said and pull me into a hug once again.

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Should Jenny marry Sehun? What do you think?

Let's find out on the next succeeding chapters :))

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